My Penectomy story from the hospital

[feedback]

I don't know if my experience is the norm but I seemed to have a much different mental attitude toward people and sex after I became a eunuch. I found I had what I would consider a more feminine mental attitude. I find I am less aggresive, more emotional and much more submissive than before. Now I find both men and women attractive where before I would not ever even look twice at a man. I was what you would call homophobic before as that is how I was raised. Now even though I have never been with a man sexually I have thought about what it would be like. I am just much more accepting of others and find that it does not have to be my way or the highway. I have a much more live and let live attitude toward others.

[YodaNell]

Actually, since women have been convicted of sexual molestation of underage boys, a penis isn't a necessary component of molestation. You realize, of course, I never accused you of such desires, and if that's what Milkman thought, I propose that he misread your post.

Sorry Slammr, I didn't mean to be obtuse about my response. I was refering to youre reference to Milkman's statement. I assure you, I'm a self-appointed Patron Saint of Children. I strongly oppose such horrible acts against children and will oppose a person doing such things with my whole being. You mention women, but I'm a man and I sure I'm correct in saying that men mainly molest children by sexual means.

Still, this is not the issue regarding my problem.

[YodaNell]

I don't know if my experience is the norm but I seemed to have a much different mental attitude toward people and sex after I became a eunuch. I found I had what I would consider a more feminine mental attitude. I find I am less aggresive, more emotional and much more submissive than before. Now I find both men and women attractive where before I would not ever even look twice at a man. I was what you would call homophobic before as that is how I was raised. Now even though I have never been with a man sexually I have thought about what it would be like. I am just much more accepting of others and find that it does not have to be my way or the highway. I have a much more live and let live attitude toward others.

Thanks feedback, this is mainly the way I feel as well. So, it can be said that the lack of T can bring forth a femanie mental paradigm.

I wonder how Hash feels about this?

[kristoff]

For what it is worth, lack of T will NOT turn you gay, straight, or whatever. You are born to your sexual orientation.

[YodaNell]

I'm off T for two months now and this I how I feel:

1) Absolute zero enery. I want to lie down on my bed the who day. It takes every bit of will power to get off the bed. I want to do NOTHING!
2) Concentration at about 50%
3) Hot Flashes - not to bad at all
4) My nipples are very sensitive
5) Some mood swings (I understand the Venus crowd much better)
6) Eating pattern - No change
7) Libido - about 5% (GREAT!!)

I so much wanted to be off T (To get libido down) but as I start to work again on 1st Feb 2012, I injected T yesterday. I NEEEED to get my enery levels up again. It seems to me that the lack of T influence people differently. Some get Flashes, others memory issues but in MY case I have no ebergy at all. It's like all my batteries are drained.

I feels slightly better today. I actually did some chores at home.

I guess I will remain on low levels T (for energy), while my libido will rize as well. I guess at equilibrium my libido will be quite managable. Far more the pre-castration. Before castration I had extreme out of control sexual desires. I will test this theory. My little stump and roots must still be removed.

[YodaNell]

Oooh I forgot. On the 18th of February (8 days ago) I was celebrating my first anniversary being a nullo! Wow, it's amazing how fast time goes by.

I'm quite used, by now, not having genitals. I haven't had genitals for a long time now it's hard to remember what it felt like having had it.

The 'high' of wanting to get a castration and penectomy is gone now and I just enjoy living my life as sombody different than most people, which I like.

I'll check in again every week, or so...

Blessings to you all, my friends. (Don't forget your creator)

[Yman]

YodaNell, did you deactivate your profile on tribe.net or is it unavailable due to some technical problem?

[YodaNell]

YodaNell, did you deactivate your profile on tribe.net or is it unavailable due to some technical problem?

Hi yman, yes I deleted my account because South Africans are for some stupid reason prevented from viewing Tribe. I did, however create the same profile on malebodymods.

[YodaNell]

Hi Guys, it's going well with me.

I've joined the local gym and with the help of Testosterone, lost some fat and gained a few kilos of muscle. I'm really gettting hooked to this gym idea and love feeling my muscles swelling larger. I obtained a good protein shake just to add a little help.
I'll post before/after pics at some point.

Still wonderful being a nullo. Don't miss penis at all. Due to my increased intake of T (for the gym), my libido has gone up as well. Furtunately, orgasm is possible. After I get my body shape ready, I'll drop to lower T-levels. I must stay true to my original goal or else my emasculation would have been for nothing.

God bless you all this Easter season!

[Mac]

YodaNell,

Thanks for the update. Glad to hear that you are doing well and that you are happy with the outcome of your surgery. Please continue to keep us updated. Wish that becomming nullo was possible here without requiring shrink and medical approval.

[feedback]

I suffer from low energy when not on TRT as well but I am retired so it is not to bad till spring when I have a lot of work in the yard etc. I have found a very strange thing seems to happen with me when I start to use my Androgel in the spring. After a week or so I find my libido increases and I function normally sexually for about 2 weeks and then I seem to lose all interest in sex and I become quite emotional and find myself wanting very badly to be totally without any sex organs. It seem with me if I use the amount of replacement recommended I very much want to be without my male parts and the urge to remove them is very strong. If I use about a 1/4 the recommended dose I seem to function not to bad and the urge to castrate and remove my penis is not nearly as strong. Don't understand why this happens but I would like to someday be nullo so I did not have to worry about any of this.

[YodaNell]

Hi guys. long time!

I've been quite busy these last few months. It going well with me. I have totally adapted being a nullo. I have come to a point where thinking about one's genitals is not taking such a huge portion of my day. I'm now asexual. My genitals are gone. I hardly remember ever having had them.


I have also joined the gym. My body is getting into nice shape. I have asked my doc to inject me with double doses of T because 'the normal dose soes nothing for me'. I actually want it to put my body in an anabolic state to grow my muscles back that I have lost while being castrated. so with some supplements and extra T, my shape is comming back nicely. I also have more energy!

Guys, listen to this! I thought that this extra T will make me as horny as hell. At first this was the case, but after a while my libido went right down to zero. I researched this and discovered that testosterone aromatizes into estrogen. This shuts your balls down! Hormonal castration man! They (bodybuilders) cals it 'Deca-Dick'. It seems that all testosterone above normal levels aromatizes into estrogen with its usual side effect such as 'bitch-tits', higher blood pressure, male pattern baldness, lethargy etc.

[SplitDik]

Yoda, if you're experiencing signs of aromatization you need to be really careful. It will cause you to get feminine body fat and block your gains in the gym in terms of losing weight. After long periods of that people often need surgery to correct the build up of breast tissue. Unless you're trying to get a body like that, you need to keep your testosterone in a normal range and if it does start to aromatize you need estrogen blockers like Raloxifene.

[YodaNell]

Yoda, if you're experiencing signs of aromatization you need to be really careful. It will cause you to get feminine body fat and block your gains in the gym in terms of losing weight. After long periods of that people often need surgery to correct the build up of breast tissue. Unless you're trying to get a body like that, you need to keep your testosterone in a normal range and if it does start to aromatize you need estrogen blockers like Raloxifene.

Thanks SD. You are quite right in what you said. I think I did mention some of the side effects of aromatization. I'm only going to use this elevated dose for 3 months I'm using Nolvadex as an anti-estrogen.

You know, as men age they also start to produce more estrogen hence the breast tissue most ages men have. Thats why I firmly believe that men should check the test/estrogen bloodlevels and supplement with test gel or something.

[YodaNell]

Hey guys!!!

UUrrrgghh!!! Tuesday I'm back in my favorite hospital. They are going to fix my nose and remove my tonsils! I believe it's going to pain like hell so I'm not looking forward to it. Hope they put me on morphine. :-)