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Sometimes When It Rains It Pours

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, 11-03-2010 at 10:35 AM (1737 Views)
Wow.

Wow. Wow. Wow.

I got a job. I sent off my book contract.

But that's not really wow.

I got a girlfriend. A remarkable girlfriend.

Now that's wow.

I've been knocked to the canvas by her meaningfulness hundreds of times in just a few short days. Never have I met another human who is so giving, and she is giving me her love, without the slightest bit of hesitation. We are both needing to shower our love upon each other, and we are both needing to accept that love as a grand gift.

She is the strongest person I've ever met. For surely one of the truest strengths is to remain super positive despite enduring some great hardships.

Love is surprising. We can't predict when it is going to occur, and how hard it is going to hit us. We can experience it, and truly believe that no feelings can be stronger than that.

And then love comes along and proves us wrong.

Very wrong indeed.

It is in the new creavaces of my smile. A sure sign that I've never smiled so consistently much in all my life. Big, genuine smiles. HEAPS of little giggling. HEAPS of extreme happiness. Without any restrictions. Whenever we want we can just hug each other, and kiss each other, and roll around in eachs others arms like little children.

And text each other with the most amazing messages. Sure, they'd make anyone else vomit, but fortunately I am not anyone else!

So does that mean that I don't love The Girl? Don't be ridiculous. I still love The Girl and always will. But I have not read her writing since we slept together. I feel no real need too, and it wouldn't be right, at least not right now. Maybe when my girlfriend learns of her we can read her amazing writing together. My girlfriend loves amazing writing and will be amazed by The Girl.

But right now I'm about to be silly again. I'm about to go over to her place at a fairly ridiculous hour, especially considering that I'm working tomorrow. But why hide away from love? Why fight love? Why not just fully embrace it?

After all, HAPPINESS awaits.

I AM IN LOVE WITH MELISSA. There is no need to hide that or her at all.

Life is indeed magical.
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  1. Milkman's Avatar
    Does this mean that castration is no longer in your plans or even your fantasies?
  2. tugon's Avatar
    I am very happy for you.
  3. loveableleopardy's Avatar
    Milkman: A great question about the castration thing. Yes I've thought about this briefly. Our relationship is only 5 days old so it's not like this is guaranteed to last (far from it given my history!), but if it does then I simply might not feel any desire to be castrated. A lot of that desire comes from disliking my masturbation habits. I feel no desire right now to do bad masturbation habits or even masturbate, though I do get hard whilst with her. Regardless, sex appears pretty irrelevant - I am super duper hapy just being magically romantic with her without sex. I think that bad masturbation might come as a result of low self esteem and depression. Well, now I have much more confidence and an enormous amount of happiness - sex drive might not matter anyway. I have heard of guys who are so happy with their woman that they don't even care much if they don't get sex often. It is the men who perhaps don't really love their wives as much who endure higher depression with no sex. But actually a major part of all of this is just physical affection. Some women see men as only wanting physical affection to lead to sex, and are extra defensive as a result. But my woman is not like this at all - and I LOVE our physical affection.

    I am still interested in the ideas of chemical castration. And maybe I will even discuss this with her one day. Melissa already knows that I'm taking anti-depressants, though she doesn't know my reasons for starting this, which were to reduce/remove my sex drive.

    Tugon: Thank you buddy. :-)))))))))))))))))))))))))
  4. Milkman's Avatar
    I also am in a new, very successful relationship and my castration desires have halted. I am starting to wonder if some of the desire for castration comes from a sense of loneliness and lack of sexual fulfillment ?
  5. twaddler's Avatar
    Congrats! New love is tasty.
  6. loveableleopardy's Avatar
    It sure is :-)))