I quit my job. This whole thing with some of the douchebags there not being cool with my being gay became this whole big thing. And I just didn't want to be a part of it. So tired of this crap. Who fucking cares about someone else's sexual preference? I'm so sick of this macho male bullshit that all gay guys are just waiting to jump every guy they come across. And why is it usually the ugly ass straight guys who are most worried about this? Like I'd give them a first look, let alone fuck them.

Actually just fucking tired of this whole life thing.

I just ... I don't know. Just tired of being me. Of thinking with my dick instead of my heart or my head. I know a way to kill two birds with one stone. But that's just crazy talk. Maybe I am crazy. I don't know.

I don't about anything anymore. Fuck life.