Sometimes when going to bed at night I will ask my wife for sex and she'll say no. Its not an intense sexual desire like it always was in the past; just a feeling that it would be a nice thing to do and a desire for intimacy. The feeling doesn't last very long and is quickly forgotten. I still usually wake early in the morning with an erection, with the pressing need to urinate. Its not accompanied by any amorous feeling.

I get horny sometimes and it always bothers me. I feel like a failure somehow. When I try to satisfy those urges its always a disappointment because since I've been chemically castrated my orgasms are really weak and always leave me wondering "Why did I bother?"

No Testosterone in your system no erections. Almost always guaranteed. Certainly my experience. Get used to it and accept it or take T. Good Luck.

Thank you all for your comments.
I have changed, my life has changed, and I must get used to it. I'm happy about it, no regret at all.