well i haven't posted in a while mostly because I still have testicles. I would be curious to know how long it took others to decide to be a eunuch and then how long it took to actually be castrated. My desire grows stronger all the time. It has been frustrating dealing with lack of funds and time. things are looking up however, I think I can have it done this year. scheduling is a problem as I have several other obligations and I would have a hard time canceling. I just keep looking at and feeling my sack and wishing it was empty of those two things that consume so much of my thoughts. Oh well good things come to those who wait I have read. I hope it's true for me.

I haven't posted in a while because my previous posts pointed so much to my becoming a eunuch and of this date it still hasn't happened yet. Needless to say I am very disappointed. Things just haven't gone the way I had hoped. It is important to me to have it done by a physician and I made and had to cancel appointments with Dr Arnkoff twice. Events have conspired to deplete my funds twice. Plus other activities have made scheduling issues. It saddens me to talk with my friends who are now happy eunuchs and tell them no I haven't gone yet. I have been on TRT for almost three years now and my testicles have shrunk quite a bit but they are still there, dammit. One good thing is my sack has also shrunk so after the balls are completely gone I may not have much left hanging. Oh well I just needed to talk about it for a second. thanks

Well it is March 1st and I thought I might check in. I am not a eunuch as yet but as I said in my last post things are getting together. Money is in the bank. I have a couple of willing traveling pardners depending on when I schedule. It needs to be done soon because it is all I think about and it is inter fearing with my life. Plus chatting with all the others that have been done and how satisfied they are makes me desire castration even more. Once my testicles are gone I can concentrate on the other changes I want i.e. scrotum removal and glansectomy. I would then have the body I want. I am on testostrone replacement right now, but I think I might want to stop it for a while afterwards to see what changes my body and mind might have. One small issue has come up and that is I have a part time master and he wants to abuse my balls some more before they are gone. I must say that would be fun and I think I may wait a month or two so we can play more.

I am disappointed that I had to e mail doctor Arnkoff and change my appointment till April. However I am not upset because I know: one my schedule for Jan and Feb is packed and I would have little recovery time and the main reason is I flat don't have the money. The money I believe with some of the things I have going will work itself out. but my other obligations must be fulfilled.

Good news is it will be more likely I will have someone to travel with me later. So I will just have to feel and look at my testicles a few more months. I don't want to especially hearing from the guys that have gone and had theirs removed. how happy and satisfied they are now. My day will come.:crying:

It has been almost a month since I made my appointment to be castrated. I cannot stop myself from thinking about it. Wish I had just rearranged my schedule for November and December and gotten it done sooner. January 21 st cannot get here soon enough. It will be tough doing anything between not and then because I cannot concentrate.

Well, I have finally taken the first step to my actual castration. I have made my appointment with Dr. Arnkoff. It is not till January since my schedule with the Holidays and such for Nov and Dec would not allow me an opening those months. I realize this is just a penciled in appointment and lots of things could change between now and then but I feel good that I have taken this step. It now becomes serious and not just a dream or fantasy. It made me realize I do really want this after years of talking about it. I don't really even have the money to spend on not necessary things like this but I feel so strongly about it that I will spend the necessary funds to get it done. My peace and happiness are worth any amount.

Well, I had a set back on Sept 29. I was involved in a car accident. Totaled my car and had serious bruises to my right side. My body is pretty much healed but my bank account is hurting. I had to pay my deductible and buy a newer car which has set me back. Now I probably won't be able to schedule my castration until spring (dammit). At least when I do drive to my surgery it will be in a slightly nicer auto. I am so envious of the guys who have been done.

Wow, I have heard from a couple of new eunuchs that used Dr Arnkoff and they report he is very professional and did the job very well. I look forward to my appointment with the good doctor. I see my urologist first week of October and if I check out as I have been and he continues me on my testosterone replacement therapy I am scheduling my appointment with Dr. Arnkoff between then and December depending on his schedules openings. I am so looking forward to being a true member of the Eunuch community and hopefully traveling to next years MOMs get together.

Well, it is nearing end of august and I have made my decision. Now that there is Dr. Arnkoff that will do castrations without letters and his office is near enough to me and the price I can afford, I will have it done. At first, after I spoke with the Doctor I was enthused, then I thought do I really want to spend that much money for something I don't really have to have? I was then very hesitant. But for the last couple of weeks every time I look at my naked body and see those testicles hanging there and every time I shower and feel and wash them, it is then I realize how very much I want them gone. I realize that for my own mental health I really have to have this done. As soon as I can arrange for a friend to go with me and the doctor can schedule the operation I will finally be like I want to be.

Damn another month gone by and I still have testicles. With the current economy it will be difficult to save money for the good Dr Fara. I wish he did his castrations in office to save cost of hospital. I understand Kimmel and Spector worked this way. I could probably afford it that way. It is taking so long I am back to considering a cutter, even with the inherent dangers. I have found it is not too hard to get a plastic surgeon to remove my sack if my balls are already gone. This can be done locally and out patient for about $1000. Dr Fara charges an extra $2000 to remove sack when he takes the testicles.

Still no progress in getting done. Everyday I want it more and more. But I know it takes time and I want everything to go well.

Hello, not much has changed. still have my testicles. My goal is to save money to get enough to have a doctor remove them, hopefully enough cash to take sack as well. the good doctor in Atlanta will do both now for the right amount of cash and no letters required.

Saw my doctor yesterday, t levels at bottom of average even with TRT. So my balls must not be producing much at all. it has been a year now and the doctor is keeping on T. I will now proceed to have my testicles removed. It has been a long year. i will finally be free of these orbs i dislike so much. Now to figure out how to get rid of my glans! any help would be appreciated.

It's almost April. I had to put off seeing my urologist until April because of a change in insurance. anyway I want these balls gone as soon as I can. Even though I have written about how difficult is it to remove a penis I still wish I could get most of mine cut off. all I need is a nub to stand and pee with. To get both done would free me of so much mental anguish, sometimes I just feel like cutting it all off and take my chances in the ER.

Well because of all the bad weather I still haven't been to my urologist to see what my t level is now. Hopefully it will be at a level to keep me on my TRT so I can schedule my castration. I have been in contact with the doctor in Atlanta and all i need to do is schedule the operation. Oh and come up with the money. I will be so happy to be free of these ugly objects, although they have shrunk quite a bit since I have been on TRT especially the last couple of months.

Happy new year. I am finding is it extremely difficult to get castrated. It is becoming apparent that I will have to save my money until I can afford to go to a Doctor like the one in Atlanta or Miami.

I forgot my password so it took a while to get back on. Next month (Jan) i will revisit my urologist and see where my testostrone levels are with my being on TRT for nine months. Hopefully they will be normal and I will continue on TRT. If all goes as expected I will be setting up a schedule to be castrated this spring. I am sick of looking and feeling these testicles. I will be so happy when they are gone.

I have made the effort to read more about penis mods. After much research I have decided this is much to dangerous to attempt. It is a difficult surgery for even a doctor. Also if you want to just remove the glans as I did proper procedure requires grafting skin from other body areas to cover and close the penis. While I am sure there are exceptions, in my research everyone I have corresponded with that attempted a DYI or with a cutter ended up in the hospital. several were lucky enough to have it done by a Doctor to start with and have had no problems. So I have removed this from my wish list. I am going to be castrated and perhaps sooner than I mentioned in my other posts. I'll keep you posted.

Well since my last post things have been going along. I am still arranging for my castration. Looks like it will probably be in the early Spring. I hate to put it off that much longer but with the Holidays and winter approaching I think it best. Plus it will make it about a year for my to be on TRT and I will for sure know how I feel about it. Currently I have a overwhelming desire to also have my cock modified. I only want enough of a nub to still be able to stand and pee. It scares me though because it is far more dangerous to cut off the penis. I don't want to end up in hospital with all the questions and expenses. If anyone can offer any advice there I would appreciate it.

It has been over a month since my last post. I have survived surgery on my shoulder. and my Mother passing. I had to stop my trt for a couple of weeks recouperating from surgery. just started back. While off trt I lost all interest in sex and never had a erection. been back on four days and just getting hard again. as soon as shoulder goes through rehab and I can use my arm again I will go back to planning and executing my castration.