Hi all,

Just wanted to say that I feel different today... It's realy odd but I am extreamly happy today.. My BF thinks I have gone mad but I think I'm in a good place at the moment. Maybe my meds have stoped all the bad feeling and thoughts and I'm alot calmer.

Love n hugs 2 all xxx

Well todays started well. I have been to see my Doctor (who is very nice btw) and she talked about how I feel and how my blood tests came out (all good).

I'm going to see a psychiatric nurse this afternoon to talk about why I feel this way and what steps I can tale next. I think I need to as I have trouble telling my BF whats going on and that I'm taking medication (although I'm sure he already knows now!).

Anyway it all went well and the doctor checked for lumps in ...

This may sound a bit funny but I have had to order a jogging bra from a catalouge. Decided that I don't do enough excersise and as I used to swim every morning the lack of sport probably does not do me any good. Anyway when I tried to jog yesterday I found that I had to "hold myself up" as the bounce was too much to handle. Loved the experience but will have to wait or I will do myself an injery... XD

I'm still keeping going with both medications and although I still get erections sex drive is lower. A nasty side effect at the moment is mood swings. I have felt a bit dipressed in the past but this is different. Some days I get quite moody and snap not intentionaly at my boyfriend. I have also noticed the size of my dick has got alittle smaller again. My bf notices it when we are making love. Quite like how smaller it has become.

Wow I have managed to keep going with the Siterone. Im off work today as I ate some dodgy food yesterday and have a icky stomach.

The siterone is realy taking effect and I know when i forget to take a dose due to me usualy snapping at my boyfriend.

He realy likes my new breasts and keeps touching them so it looks like I have his aproval that I'm becoming more girly.

My face has realy begone to change the skin is softer and my features have changed quite ...