It is probably the last update here: I've got the offer from the place, and I accepted it.

Sounds like very encouraging news!

Some update... first of all, looks like everything is okay, and the interview went well. At least I was promised a job offer soon.
I am going to another job interview for one more company, just in case .

Originally Posted by purpletomato

in my experience, you have to apply to a lot of places... best of luck.

It was the second one, of the currently four places I applied. I do not have much experience with job searching, it was only two places. The first place, kid of co-opted me (it was one of the departments of the university), the current one was suggested by one of the coworkers at the university.

Originally Posted by Milkman

Good luck with this one.. I worked and taught in Russia and am always amazed at how many people speak excellent English....

While working in IT (and probably other high-tech fields), at least reading English is a survival need. A lot of literature is translated with a delay of 2-3 years (from translation to publishing) and in IT and technical fields it is unacceptable. And some of the translations are not accurate, which is even worse.

in my experience, you have to apply to a lot of places... best of luck.

Good luck with this one.. I worked and taught in Russia and am always amazed at how many people speak excellent English....

You could allways blame bad line quality. I hope your interviewer understood that. Waiting for 20 minutes for the interviewer sounds insane. It leads me to think, that this was done intentionally, to see how interested you were. So, you might expect something attached. Most important of the speech quality are answers if you replied correctly.
These interviewers are clever and squeeze many details out about your personality. I think it is most wise to be honest in every answer, it assures your loyalty and make them feel you have been honest with all your answers.
I hope you succeed!!

I do not want justice... At this stage I just want to be left alone.
But anyway, thanks.

People can be so mean towards one another. I hope your letter will bring you some justice. They are just jealous

Hugs, hang in there.

Glad to see you thinking this way.. there is no rush!! You have lived with testicles for decades already, a few more months will help you decide if you really want them off

Time spent on decision making is time well spent....you are young, take all the time you need to make major decisions.....depending on your ultimate direction and goal, there might be some things that are needed else ware for your finale goal(tissue, skin, nerve ending,etc.}...I only mention this since you indicate transgender in your profile....so time spent on decisions are very crucial to your mental,physical, and general well being an overall health.

good wishes
Denise

Wise choice - never be too quick with this decision!

correct you do not want to make this kind of decision in a wrong state of mind

Originally Posted by graylayer02

Keep in mind, too, that some of the physical effects take 6 months to develop...and can get especially bad during the winter.

Like feeling like I am freezing, when the room temperature drops below 22-23 degrees? Ouch.
Yes, I know that there are alot of things to think through and to decide. And there is a choice of what can I do. I need to think and some quiet time to do it.

There's a lot to weigh. I guess to yourself, you need to make a list of what you like and don't like about having lower T. Keep in mind, too, that some of the physical effects take 6 months to develop...and can get especially bad during the winter.

That said, it sounds like you've thought a lot of things through. I think you'll make the right decision, whatever that is.

I agree with what Erikboy has said.. even if fertility is not an issue, becoming a eunuch apparently is about more than just lowering o f sexual desire...

You are again in the middle of philosophical questions.
But it seems you have found several answers for questions you had before chemcast. trials.
As you feel so strongly being bothered by returning testosterone and not worried about fertility which might be damaged already by last trial I feel the answer is obvious.
You could return to T anytime by artificial means and prolonging Androcur treatment will inevitably lead to permanent loss of testicular function.
Injecting alcohol might be less radical and softer and more easily acceptable solution to achieve your desired state of mind... As you have said - Russia is full of undocumented possibilities - there could be a willing doc to help you.
The big problem is that whatever you choose now could be regrettable in the future.
first clean your mind of emotions and try to see where these different paths could you lead. What are the dangers and what are the possibilities. SWOT analysis
Then use your emotions and try to feel how these paths make you feel in future - after a year, 3 years, 5 years, 10 years, 20 years.... I think after 40 years it does not matter anymore what path have you chosen.
It is important to see that positive emotions of chosen path should dominate over negative emotions.
As you have had already an insight what it is like to be an eunuch it is easier to understand what is lying ahead on this path.
You must feel happier what ever path you choose. Remember that surrounding people and their attitude toward you is important. Very important. Your life could be emotionally miserable if you are excluded. Humans are social beings and they need eachother for socializing and emotional emmm.... refreshment... I think that EA cannot replace physical people surrounding you every day.

I hope, you make clear and informed decision