So... It was a first week on the job.

The week was chaotic, dealing with the bureaucracy and looots of initial paperwork.
It currently feels like my head is going to explode from the amount of technical and non technical documents that I have read (and some signed).
Oh, and I do not know if it was English or Russian that was spoken more, during this week.
Now I found out, that at least some accents I do not understand, like this: "... what was that word...?", ...

I am currently searching for a new job, and so I was interviewing with one of the companies. They are outsourcers, so first I interviewed with them (which went well). And today was a phone interview with the customer representatives. Over the phone. From Israel to Russia. Supposedly in English. Can one spell disaster?

First I spent about 20 minutes on the phone, waiting for the interviewer. It didn't help with the anxiety (and remembering, that last time I used spoken english was ...

Yesterday was a bit crazy...
It first started with me coming to work and seeing a mess of workplace. It took me about 15 minutes to reconnect all parts of the computer back, clean the table of all extra things and then to discover something sharp in the chair.
It was not the first case of harrasment at work, but that one was probably most severe.
Then I have done something that I am still unsure about: I described that happened, implying that that was not the first case (ok, ...

When your mood can change from normal to awful and depressed and back in one day... I do not think that it is the state of mind in which one should take life altering (and irreversible) decisions. I think it is better to wait a month or a bit more before deciding everything.

23 days ago there was the end of second chemical castration trial.
What have I got from it? What have I learned? What I want?
First of all it would be the last trial. No more - either I find the way of archieving permanent results, or I just do nothing...
Main question is - what do I want to do?
The more I think about this, the more ethanol injections seem the way to go. The effects of returning testosterone range from bothering to unppleasant.
In any case if I do it ...