The "AD" of a life time!

Dear Bryan,

Thank you so very much for your letter. I appreciate your sincerity and humbleness you forwarded to me and I hope your true nature is reflected in what you wrote. For that reason I have replied to you and only you. You will be interested to note that I received over a thousand letters in the last two weeks and some continue to trickle in.

I meant everything I said in the ad and you will find some of what I am writing here shocking, however I hope that you will accept my offer as I feel you are the one.

As I mentioned in the ad I am a Single white female, 45 pretty and divorced. I am quite well to do as I got everything from my husband when he cheated on me and courts ruled in my favor. That God for female judges!

(Bryan stared at the photo and agreed that she was pretty, not model or gorgeous but pretty. A very natural woman with long dark hair and deep dark eyes. He could not imagine having a woman like that and cheating on her. Although he never met the husband he instinctively hated him).

Your letter appealed to me immensely, I especially liked your honesty in the way you described yourself as an awkward, misunderstood young man in pain who needs to discover who he is. And the fact that you would find comfort in pleasing and obeying others tells much about you.

I admire your openness in revealing your deepest secrets to me.

I assure they will be very safe with me and exploited in the extreme once our relationship begins.

(This was the tenth time he had read the letter and his pulse still raced, his penis still swelled and his face still radiated heat when he read that part. Especially when he remembered what he had confessed to her!)

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Please send me back a letter confirming that you are interested and will attend.

I remain

Layla

Bryan Quickly replied.

It will be my honor to meet with you. I will be there at the appointed time and place and very much look forward to meeting you.

Again I am honored.

Yours forever!

Bryan.

The reply to Bryans letter had him dancing around his apartment and he nearly ripped the envelope open with his teeth he was so excited.

Dear Bryan,

You are confirmed for our date.

You must prepare a few things for when we meet. I want there to be nail polish on your toenails, you must wear your prettiest pair of panties you have. You will also remove every hair on your body from the neck down. If you can’t do this for me, do not come!

Are you ready to surrender your Penis and Balls and forfeit your soul to me? Nullification is gratification; remember it is not the destination, but the journey

Your future awaits you, be at the restaurant on the date mentioned below. If you do not, show up, you will never be able to contact me again.

Bryan had trouble breathing. The panties, polish and body shaving would be easy and fun! He was in heaven and could not contain himself. But there was something he could not understand, what had she meant about Nullification? He got on the net and typed up the word and searched. Nothing came up that at all related to him. Nullification of court cases, bill of rights, BC news? What did she mean? Then he tried again realizing she has mentioned it right after surrendering his penis and balls.

He typed Nullification+penis and what came up shocked him. There were all kinds of web sites talking about sexual nullification. He read the services and stories and saw pictures. Men voluntarily having there balls and penis removed and a pee whole placed to piss! Not a woman and definitely not a man! Could she possible want this for me he thought wondering? He loved his penis! What would life be like without them? No way! I’m not that crazy!

Even as Bryan thought it his penis grew at the idea. Even as he stroked himself he imagined it gone, erased, deleted and as much as it repulsed him he still had an erection.

He found a web site that showed a complete penectomy from start to finish. It was amazing and he stared at every scene with eyes wide open! The procedure was fascinating and was done by an underground cutter. The way the penis was simply removed in the end and the man sewn up leaving him bare and smooth! Again when he looked down his swelled penis betrayed him. “How can I be thinking this?” he asked himself? A procedure like this was permanent and forever. There was no going back it was one penis given at check-in that would be gone once removed! Forever, do deposit no return! And at this thought he came! He prayed that night that he was mistaken and that he interpreted wrong.

On the date she requested he was at the restaurant waiting for her. His nervousness was making him shake and he could hardly speak when the waitress came to him.

“I will wait for the person joining me, thank you,” he said.

Then as the waitress left, Layla seated herself down in front of him. As she sat he stood up and she smiled at him.

“So gallant, and I thought chivalry was dead.”

“I am very pleaded to meet you Layla”

“Thank you it is nice to meet you. Would you prefer that we eat or shall we get down to business right away?”

“It will be as you wish.”

‘Big Smile’, “I know I picked well. Let me take care of ordering.”

She signaled the waitress and ordered for the both of them. And began with a White wine Spritzer.

“Do you drink?”

“Yes, I do.”

“Not anymore Bryan. He will have water,” she told the waitress.

“Nervous?”

“Extremely!”

“Good, I hope you came here ready to make a commitment because the road ahead will be an adventure like you have never experienced.”

“I..I understand.”

“Bryan I am looking for a companion for the rest of my and the life of my…let’s call him my pet. I am getting old and have been hurt quite severely by my ex-husband.”

“Your not old, your beautiful!”

“You are very sweet Bryan but what I need from you right now is to listen. I don’t want a man to remarry; I don’t want to be a victim again…EVER! I want a “PET” who will be mine by design and have only one thing on it’s mind at all times, namely me.”

“What do you mean by its mind?”

“I will get to that shortly, be patient. As I was saying I will be the world to this person until the day it dies. The benefit to myself is obvious, unconditional love, respect, obedience and absolute and unequivocal control. You may not totally understand what I am saying but you will. I am offering you an opportunity that I know is extreme in nature but highly attractive to some. I feel you are one of them. So I expect you not to make this decision lightly, but quickly.”

She pulled out a large manila envelope and passed it to Bryan.

“In this envelope is a legal contract all ready for you to sign, this is no joke and is irrevocable once signed. Your life will forever be changed at my mercy. Don’t worry I won’t bite, but you will be my submissive, my slave, my pet, my play toy and very much an It!”

“What do you mean by it?”

“It is quite simple, you see the actual thing that classifies Man as a male and Woman as a female is not there Genitals. No not at all. It is the male’s ability to produce sperm and the female’s ability to produce the egg. Without this ability they are Its.”

“So if I agree to this?”

“Then the very first thing we will do is have you nullified.”

There was silence for at least a minute. Layla just sat there patiently staring at Bryan and Bryan was wide eyed and in mild shock. All he knew was that he should get out and run away and yet he was still there. His penis was poking and throbbing so hard against his jeans that it started to hurt. She just stared at him and he knew she was waiting for him to speak. Nullification?

For as long as he could remember he had been confused about life, about his sexuality, about everything. Nothing ever made sense to him and so he had retreated into the world of transvestites, bondage and Fetish. This world made sense to him, it was more real and comfort than anything else and it all seemed right. All we wanted was to be told what to do and to serve all the time and to obey. At 25 years of age he had gone nowhere, done nothing of any importance, and establish not a single relationship worth remembering. And now before him was a woman who wanted him and only him as her slave. To anyone else this offer would have been ludicrous. But for him to become a something that was important meant the world to him. To offer the one thing he had of value as sacrifice gave him value and all of a sudden that one act seemed the one thing he must do.

He did realize he was staring outside and when he looked at her smiling he smiled to.

“I accept.”

“You know once you begin there is no turning back.”

“I know, I accept.”

“Everything and everyone you knew will become a distant memory and your entire life from this point on will be dedicated and devoted to one and only one thing, me.”

“Nothing would please me more.”

“The things I will do to you will be permanent and your life will be forever changed and there will be no way to undo what will be done.”

“I know, I accept.”

Layla leaned back as the meal, which was mainly entrees arrived and they began to eat.

“So? Are you wearing the panties?”

“Y’…yes I am. Do you want to see them?”

“Not right now, I assure you I will see them later and I guarantee they will be much more comfortable once your nullified.”

“I... I would imagine...yes.”

“What color are you toenails?”

“Light pink.”

“Really? I would have imagined bright red.”

Bryan blushed and they continued to eat. When they were done Bryan paid for the meal and they left. They got into her car and they drove to the Notary office. Bryan opened the contract and read it over with great care. He was giving her power of attorney over his entire life including for physical matters pertaining to his body.

Everything he owned (and that was not much) would be hers. She would be able to make any and all decisions pertaining to his life. He looked at her and swallowed as she drove.

What if she was a con woman? What was he getting himself into? He could be screwed for life! But every instinct told me he was doing the right thing.

They arrived and were warmly greeted by the receptionist who knew Layla by first name. The Notary was also a woman who greeted her with a kiss and hug. Bryan was introduced and they went into a meeting room and closed the door. In the room was another woman who was introduced as Dr. Lauder.

The notary carefully went over the contract with Bryan he was asked to sign here and initial there and was asked on many occasion, “Do you understand the implications and consequences if you sign?” Bryan agreed and then Dr. Lauder asked her whole series of questions and that is when Bryan realized she was a psychologist. Some of those questions were very disturbing regarding how he felt about woman, but he let them pass.

“Now Layla you sign here, Dr Lauder here and finally Mr. Azko you sign here and your life now belongs to Layla.” With quivering hand Bryan signed five times. I copy to the city and Notary, one to the Dr. Lauder, one to both Layla and Bryan.

Layla then went into a corner pulled out her cell phone and started dialing as the Psych and Notary were chatting together.

After a bit she thanked and bid farewell to her the two ladies and called to Bryan, “Come my pet, time to be neutered.” They got into her car again and they drove in silence to a large sky rise and parked below.

They took the elevator to the 17 floor and went to an office with a sign reading “Dr. Shaman Gynecologist, surgeon” Layla instructed Bryan to sit and wait while she spoke with the receptionist who directed her into the Doctors office.

Bryan sat there somewhat uncomfortable as two other women where seated in the waiting room with him. He picked up a magazine and started to read, Cosmopolitan, why not!

A few minutes later he heard the intercom “Mr. Bryan Azko, Mr. Bryan Azko” He go up and felt eyes following him into the other room.

“Please be seated Mr. Azko, I have read your file and I understand that wish to be nullified, is that correct?” He looked to Layla and then to the doctor.

“Yes, Ma’am that is correct. “ Bryan was shaking visible now and part of him was yelling RUN!

“I see all the details of your uncontrollable urge to rape woman signed by you and confirmed by your psychologist.”

“Excuse me?” said Bryan. Then looked to Layla who was just smiling at him. Then the whole thing made sense. This was all part of it to protect everyone, everyone except Bryan.

“Your uncontrollable urge to rape! That sadistic need to force yourself upon helpless and defenseless woman in order to satisfy your shameful desire to express domination over your victim. So you have agreed to be sexually nullified, doing the right thing to protect the innocent. Please sign here and here.”

Bryan took the pen and looked at Layla who nodded and smiled at him. He realized that this was bringing him that much closer to the point of no return. Before he realized it he had signed and now had a tremendous bulge in his groin. The realization came to him that bulges would not be a problem for much longer.

“Alright,” Said Dr. Shaman “time to get started.” She led Bryan into the connecting room that was set up much like a mini operating room. Please get completely undressed and I’ll be right back.”

As Bryan slowly got undressed he realized that he was hanging pretty pink panties on the hook and when he removed his socks his pretty pink toenails stared back at him. The reason that he was told to be completely bare had become apparent. On the floor he found a pair of paper cotton slippers and put them on. These however allowed his toes to be seen. Where they afraid he would get cold feet? Bryan smiled at his own joke and then started to tremble. Before another thought came to mind Dr. Shaman entered the room all dressed in white.

“Nice toes,” she said and made Bryan blush. “Sit here and lean forward and DO NOT MOVE! This will sting a bit but the pain goes away quickly.” Bryan felt the sting of a needle enter his spine behind and then felt a strange pressure like he ever felt before. “Very good, lets just wait a few minutes while the epidural takes effect, lie down, put your legs through here was rest your feet here, comfortable?” Bryan just nodded and looked at the position he was in. Legs spread open and bent at the knee, his feet in stirrups and his groin exposed to her and vulnerable.

Then Dr. Shaman wrapped leather restraints around the thigh and tied it to the metal under his knees. “Don’t worry, standard procedure to prevent you from closing your legs.”

“Umm It’s okay…I don’t mind” Bryan realized he was stuttering.

“Nicely shaved, it’s nice when the patients help me a bit.” She said as she swabbed the area and brought her tools in close. Let’s see, can you feel this?” she asked him.

“Umm No”

“What about this?”

“No, nothing…why?”

“I would say we are ready to begin.”

“Wait are you sure I am frozen enough?” Bryan began to panic.

“Well take a look and you tell me.” She said as she lowered the sheet she had draped over his knees. Bryan brought his head up and stared at his penis that now had a large needle directly though the head. He quickly went back down and she put back the sheet.

“Umm… Doctor?”

“Yes?”

“Could you do me a favor, please?”

“Depends, what is it?”

“When you reach the point where the procedure is about to become irreversible, could you just let me know please?”

“That is in two parts, Irreversible for your balls, then penis but sure, I can do that for you.”

“Thank you” Bryan had no idea why he asked for that, maybe some part of him wanted to escape before things went to far. What was he doing here in the first place, what was he doing? She was about to surgically remove every trace of his manhood and he would become an it! There was no way to replace what could not be replaced! He was only 25 years old and for the rest of his life he would have to sit to pee! If he was in the woods or at a ball game he could never again just pull it out and whiz. What the hell was he doing here?

“Umm Doctor…”

“Hold on… okay, I just removed your scotum, yes what is it?”

“My balls are gone?”

“Yes, they are would you like to see them?”

“NO, that’s okay.”

“Oh I’m sorry I forgot he mention the point of no return, I will advise you regarding the penis shortly.”

Damn, his balls were gone! Just like that this morning he was all male and now…now how many hours later…what time was it anyways? He had lost all track of time. He had to go, he started to breathe heavy and panic started to creep over him again. Okay, he could not do this, he needed his penis and that was that! But she was working down there probably slicing the penis all up. She would warn him just before the point of no return and he would ask her to stop. She would have to stop didn’t she? He could live without balls he was sure. But his penis was his and he wanted it, and wanted it right where it was. It would just be the needle though the tip. That could heal he was sure and then he would be okay…or as okay as a man without balls could be. But Layla had that power of attorney over him…could she make him finish the surgery on a later date? Would she be so very angry with him for stopping it? He didn’t care…what could she do to him that would be worst than this!

Okay I am going to stop this right now!

“Umm…Doctor?”

“Hold that thought for just one minute, I can’t mess this up!” Bryan held his breath for a minute.

“Okay! There! Oh you wanted to know just before we reach the point of no return right?”

“Yes, that’s right!”

“Well we just past it.”

“What? Your not serious are you?”

“Would like to see you penis?” She pulled the sheet down just a bit and in her hand was his severed penis. Dead, devoid of life, forever severed from his body. The needle was still in the head and the skin all in tack except at the base where skin was missing. “I severed the internal muscle supports and the nerves that connected it to you. Even if I wanted to there is way to reattach it now. Especially after I do this. She lowered her hand and after a few seconds brought the penis back up in a tray cut into 20 pieces.

Bryan swallowed hard. Well that was it, it really was over. No more penis, all gone and no chance what-so-ever of a reversal. A peace came over him as the realization of the finality of what happened began to set in.

“It won’t be much longer, I’m just relocating your urethra so you can urinate sitting down, just like a lady.”

“Thank you.” Bryan just relaxed there while she finished up.

“I’m just sewing you up and you will ready to go after the epidural wears off, an hour or so. I have given you an injection of anti-biotic, but there are rarely complications with this sort of augmentation. Very important though is your system is no longer able to produce hormones so in six months you will need to begin hormone replacement therapy. In the mean time I have inserted a time release capsule under your skin the will dispense hormones gradually into your system over a six month period. There is a catheter in you that I will remove in a week. Keep it clean and in 3-4 months the scar should disappear almost completely. I did an extra special job sewing you up. You should thank me!”

“Thank You.” Bryan said.

“Take a look before I put a bandage on.” She said as she took the sheet off. And there below was nothing, there was just a dark scar where things had been earlier. It was unbelievable and kind of surreal to not see his genitals. Wow he thought…unbelievable!

A few hours later Bryan was taken to Layla’s home where he recovered for the next week. Another trip to Dr. Shaman and the catheter was removed. A month after that Bryan was on his feet and doing what he used to except that lifting was out of the question for 3-4 months.

He was getting used to his new role of taking complete care of Layla. He would bathe her and brush her hair, cook, sew, clean the house all the while wearing a maids outfit. At night he would serve her orally when asked to.

Bryan often looked at himself and stared down at nothing. He always had to sit down now to pee, but he got used to that too. He loved his panties and they were indeed much more comfortable and he especially loved to look at himself in a string bikini.

But now that he was all healed he was told that the next phase of his transformation was about to begin. It was amazing how you could be terrified and excited at the same time. The reality was that he was where he was doing what he wanted to. The next few months would put the final touches on Layla’s plans to make it impossible for him to ever leave her. He would be the most dedicated and obedient mate there ever was, and the best part of all is that there was no possible way out.

He smiled at that thought!