In the first few weeks after Steve's castration he was reluctant to tell me much about his what he did during his duties as a eunuch in the local harem.

We had been informed beforehand you may recall that Steve would be expected to do more or less anything the women asked him to do. He doesn’t mind me knowing, but he feels very awkward about the position he finds himself in and is embarrassed at being castrated. He is OK with me writing my experiences on this website. I have learned quite a bit about his harem duties from our cleaner Shadeen.

She does some work at the palace though not in the actual harem. Some of her friends however do work in the harem and she has asked them about Steve. Apparently he is one of only a handful of white eunuchs as most of them are native. Also a lot of the native eunuchs are castrated at a younger age and have had little or no sexual experience. Steve is in demand because he has a sex drive even though that doesn’t result in erection. So he is very popular with the women there because he needs the outlet of cunnilingus and fingering to make him feel of some use sexually. However a lot of the time the women tend to indulge in mutual masturbation in pairs or small groups. There is a tendency at times to tease the eunuchs this way though as the women there are used to men with no balls they don’t always take much notice of the eunuchs apparently. According to Shadeen's friends the younger females who are becoming more sexually aware in their teens are the ones most likely to tease eunuchs by stripping or flashing in front of them and pointing between the eunuchs legs and laughing. Steve did admit this happens to him sometimes and he gets very frustrated but has to grin and bear it. A lot of the eunuchs time is spent just standing by until summonsed by any of the women and girls. Bathing duties and some massage is also carried out. Shadeen has told me that Steve as a prized white eunuch would probably be asked to attend the sheik or any of the male members of the family. Again this could include bathing and massage. He would not be expected to perform sexually in any way with these males if he did not wish to but it was almost inevitable that these males would try it on by stroking his ass or by asking for their genitals to be rubbed during the massages.

I found this quite difficult to take in. I had already resigned myself to his duties with the women but Steve indulging with men was something else. The strain generally on our relationship has been great. To be fair to Steve he still tries to give me some sexual satisfaction. However I am still turned off by his castration and the easy way it happened. I don’t like to see him naked from the waist down if I'm honest, it’s a big turn off. I prefer it if he keeps his boxers on in bed. I still love him and we cuddle in bed sometimes and I let him finger me or go down if I'm in the mood. A couple of times when he has led on top of me and rubbed his groin against mine. If I'm feeling really horny I ask him gently what he would do if he had balls, would he fuck me hard. It sounds cruel but he gets into it and he rubs even harder against me and I can orgasm that way. Like Ive said before though I feel awkward after orgasms with Steve as he has not had any relief but he would be more upset if I didn’t let him touch me.

I did eventually get him to open up a bit about his harem experiences. A lot of the time he says its actually quite boring standing around. He feels guilty about the sexual duties he performs for the women. Surprisingly I found myself reassuring him and not to worry. I was well aware how frustrated he was and told him that he was very good at oral and finger sex and if it helped give him some purpose sexually then that was OK. He was cagey about the duties with the men so I didn’t press him. I now know from Shadeen's sources that he has been seen wanking off one of the men. One of the difficulties for Steve and for me to a lesser extent is other people knowing he has been castrated. The palace officials wrote to his company informing them that Steve was now a eunuch and would be needed for his three shifts. I know most of Steve's work colleagues. Melissa is a secretary there. Shes a sexy young girl in my opinion and she amongst other things opens the post. She told me of her shock when she read the letter. We used to socialize a lot with her and her boyfriend but Steve understandably is so embarrassed he shies away. Another female friend Lisa is a hairdresser and a beautician. She actually attends the harem from time to time to give treatments to the women, and of course on one of those occasions Steve was there in his naked from the waist down eunuchs uniform. So word gets around.

Steve feels angry that he was singled out for castration and admitted he wishes others from the social network would have to undergo it too. He says he feels jealous of them because they have balls. Ironically Steves plight has made any of our male friends with dual passports give them up thereby excluding them from the possibility of castration. I havent had the heart to tell Steve that watching him give up his balls without a fight was a big turn off for me. He would have lost them anyway I suppose. Despite the occasional temptation especially when Ive been masturbating, I have not taken advantage of the stud service on offer at the harem. Steve has become aware of this. He told me that the other eunuchs had been taunting him that I would eventually fuck one of these studs. He did say he would understand if I did but I wasn’t convinced he meant it. A couple of male friends aware of Steves castration have come on to me saying that if I needed a fuck they would love to help. Cant blame them for trying I suppose.

Thats it for this episode. I will try to write the next chapter when I can. This will be more about our return to England and the difficulty of adjusting to life as a wife of a castrated man in England. I'm still staggered by the stuff on this website. I hope I'm not judging when I say I still find it hard to get my head round castration as a fantasy. Are there any women out there who have had any similar experiences to Steve and I, if so would love to hear your feedback. How did you cope with seeing your man castrated.

I found the Eunuch Archive site when I Googled castration because I was looking for any info that might help Steve and I. I have to say though that the feedback I have had has been really sweet and kind and I do thank you for your support. Best wishes to all of you out there