Sacrification


By: Susan Winter + Andy (susanwinter@operamail.com)

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[TESTICLES]


A boy lets his testicles be removed and he receives female hormone 
treatment in order to be accepted by his lesbian girlfriend.

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I am Susan. I am lesbian. A boy who strongly wanted to become my 
lover sacrificed his testicles for getting my approval for this 
relationship, which I enjoy very much nowadays. Please find his 
report on his modification below:

This account is my own personal experience which may be helpful to 
anyone who is considering having a bilateral orchidectomy and my 
aim is to simply describe in my own words what it was actually like 
to have this done. In my case the operation was carried out in 
Leicester Nuffield hospital (UK) under local anaesthesia which was 
how I chose to have it done.
My first visit to Leicester was on the Monday of the week and to 
the Bupa hospital there where I had made an appointment to see the 
surgeon Mr Terry. The appointment went well, lasting about twenty 
minutes and as well as inspecting the pre-surgery area I was asked 
a few basic questions concerning my attitude to living full time as 
a woman, my family and Susan. It was also stated clearly that this 
procedure is not reversible. Mr Terry came across as being 
friendly, was satisfied that I was making the right decision for 
myself and also complimented me on my appearance. I was anxious to 
have the surgery as soon as possible and was glad to find that a 
space was available in his diary only two days hence. 
On the evening before the operation myself and Susan again drove 
the 250 mile journey from our home city and arrived at the hotel 
where we had booked a room for the night. I was feeling very 
relaxed that evening and had no fears of what was about to happen 
to me even though this was my first visit to a hospital for 
elective surgery. I remembered having my appendix out when I was 
twelve but this was a very different adult experience and one which 
would pave the way to having the big one some time next year. The 
whole situation seemed a bit dreamy, the fact that we were here in 
an expensive hotel and the reason was because of my operation 
tomorrow. We joked about things and counted down the hours. This 
time tomorrow 'they' will be gone. It also seemed strange that I 
have had this part of anatomy for 34 years but I was confident that 
I would not miss them. 
In the morning I chose a light breakfast. We got up at 6 a.m. and I 
ate some cold rice pudding and had a coffee. I had a shower and put 
on light make-up but it was not necessary to remove the make-up for 
the operation. I had previously epilated my legs and shaved all 
hair on my genitals so as not to have the added trauma of having 
the surgery area shaved on the day by a nurse who may have not done 
a good job of it or slipped with the razor. Prior to leaving the 
hotel at 7 a.m. I took two Temazepam sedative tablets. I was 
worried that they might make me light headed and travel sick. Susan 
drove and we got to the hospital safely just before 8 a.m. I was 
feeling a bit more nervous now but calm too. 
We were shown to my room by an efficient porter who did not have a 
clue why I was here. Soon several nurses came in to say hello and I 
was allowed to change into the surgical gown and then settle in 
bed. I rested there in the pleasant room and nodded off while we 
waited. Susan stayed next to me relaxing in an arm chair and held 
my hand. The sedative had made me very sleepy but I was also fully 
aware of what was happening. The nurses had said I would be taken 
to surgery at 10 a.m. but they arrived at 9.30 and I was wheeled 
off for the snip. I was glad I had been to the wash room earlier 
and emptied my bladder. I felt quite emotional leaving the room and 
being on my own without Susan with me. I felt so secure with her 
but I knew this was only a small simple operation and thought about 
being back with her soon. 
I was taken up in the lift and wheeled into a cold clinical theatre 
where some other nurses greeted me. I was told that the surgery 
room was always kept cool but they covered my feet up to keep me 
warm. I was moved across onto a narrow bed ready for the operation 
where I lay for several minutes while Mr Terry got ready to 
operate. The nurse was nice and asked a few questions as well as 
frequently informing me of what they were doing while I was 
waiting. Above me were a mass of large twisted metal bars with 
massive lights on the ends of them, likened to some dreamy 
fairground attraction or the inside of some alien space ship. Soon 
a nurse came along and swabbed my abdomen and legs with Betadine 
which was very cold as she said it would be. A large cold plastic 
pad was placed on my left leg which was something to do with the 
diathermy unit that would be used to cauterise the cuts. Then she 
placed various pieces of waterproof sheeting around the area to be 
worked on which had slightly adhesive strips on them so that they 
would not fall off. 
Mr Terry greeted me and asked if I was feeling all right and then I 
was given injections. He explained each one and what it would feel 
like before he did them. Firstly one into the left spermatic cord 
above the scrotum. There was a sharp sore prick as it went in 
followed by a slightly unpleasant dull pain as it arrived at the 
cord. This lasted for about 3 seconds. Then he did the other side; 
again the sharp prick but not so much pain on arriving at the cord. 
It lasted for about 1-2 seconds. The final injection in this area 
was in the centre of the scrotal sac which was a sore burning 
feeling as it went in but did not last long. Mr Terry then left the 
room for a few minutes while the injected anaesthetic was allowed 
to take affect. During this time an antibiotic injection was given 
in my right upper leg which hurt a lot more than the others had. A 
few minutes passed, further friendly chatting with the nurse who 
explained they were all hungry as they had not had breakfast yet, 
then Mr Terry returned to do the operation. 
My scrotum did not feel numb but it became obvious that it was as 
he began to make the 2cm long incision in the middle. I had not 
requested to watch but had previously been informed in detail of 
the proceedings. It seemed to me that he was using some sort of 
laser torch to burn open the opening as I could feel him moving 
slowly down the incision. I could see puffs of smoke and could 
smell burning flesh but it was not unpleasant and the only feeling 
I got was an occasional warm sensation in the area where he was 
working. I did also feel the occasional trickle of fluid running 
from the cut. Susan later explained that he had probably already 
cut the hole with a surgical blade and I had not felt it. He would 
then have used the diathermy unit to burn around the opening to 
seal it. 
The next stage of the operation was to isolate the spermatic 
cords/arteries and clamp them. This was probably the most 
unpleasant part of the operation. I could feel the cords where they 
passed away from the scrotal area into my lower body being tugged. 
This was not painful but felt uncomfortable for a short while. I 
could hear the clamps being attached, snipping and burning of the 
cords. He then said that he was about to stitch me up. I had not 
felt him remove the testicles but I think must have done so shortly 
after clamping the cords. It had all been so very quick. Stitching 
was a very speedy process. I felt the occasional dull prick as some 
of this work was done and more so, the pulling as he tightened them 
before cutting them off. 
He explained that the stitches would need no attention as they 
dissolve. He also said I might get some bruising in the area but 
not to worry. Then he announced the operation completed as nurses 
removed the various sheeting from me. As the sticky sheets were 
peeled off I was glad I had already epilated my legs as it could 
have been painful, the sheets sticking to my leg hair. I moved 
across to my bed and was covered in the warm blankets. As I moved 
across I saw a large stain of brown Betadine on the operating table 
with some blood. I was slightly tearful as I was wheeled out of the 
theatre, several happy faces waved goodbye and I knew I was going 
to be all right now. 
The journey back to my room was short but I struggled to hold back 
my tears, finally arriving back I grabbed Susans hand and cried for 
a while. I was happy to be back with her and also emotional about 
having had the operation done and not having to worry about having 
those male parts ever again. I was relieved and happy. The nurses 
left the room promptly and I was allowed to rest for a few hours 
and talk with Susan about the experience. During this time I soon 
felt well enough to have some tea and sandwiches which were 
provided. Later I went to the wash room and also saw the area which 
was red and swollen but not too painful. It actually looked like 
they were still in there somewhere but I knew that when the 
swelling goes down it will be obvious that they are gone. 
Later we had more tea and I was given antibiotics, pain killers and 
a Voltarol suppository. I was also provided with dressing and 
padding to protect the operation area. Mr Terry appeared during 
this time to see if all was well and check for bleeding. He wished 
me well and offered his services in the future if I felt I needed 
any more surgery by him. We eventually left the hospital at 3.30 
p.m. and travelled back through Leicester in the rain as the 
weather had changed. The journey back seemed quick and was not 
unpleasant as I could feel no pain. Susan made sure I was well 
looked after and gave me pain killers as and when necessary as a 
precaution. I slept very well the first night after surgery and 
although a little stiff and aching the next day felt quite well and 
with no regrets about the operation. Over a time scale of about two 
weeks the stitches began to dissolve and itch slightly where they 
had become ingrown with the scrotal skin. Susan carefully removed 
them at the right time and also regularly swabbed the area with 
Betadine. There were also other stitches within the scrotal sac 
which are noticeable by feeling them through the skin. These 
eventually dissolve. The swelling and slight bruising went down too 
and after a month all that remained was an almost invisible neat 
scar. It was necessary in my case to have a week's course of 
antibiotics prescribed by my doctor as I was afflicted with a minor 
bacterial infection in the outer scar area during the healing 
process. At the time of writing this account I am three months 
after this operation, have no regrets and the lack of testosterone 
has enabled my hormone treatment which has caused some feminisation 
and has been of great benefit to my mental well being too. I am 
very happy as Susan is.
I do no longer have spontaneous erections. Even with direct 
stimulation of my penis it does not grow or harden any more. It is 
always flaccid now and I cannot penetrate Susan's vagina. That is 
what was her condition for our relationship. My penis is just good 
for peeing. There has been no more ejaculation since the surgery. 
My sexual desires have completely changed. I enjoy giving Susan 
pleasure with my tongue and fingers. I have no more male libido and 
just like to be her lust servant.

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