Question to other males?

five years ago I woke up without my foresking and having my penis
reattached. Just like Mr. Bobbitt;however, my attackers were male
and I just want to know why?

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I was born in the early 70's to a redheaded mother and a father 
with black hair and blue eyes. My father was french and did not 
believe in circumcision.  Like my father I stand 6 foot even and 
weigh 195. I am very fair of complexion yet have a deep auburn hair 
color and blue eyes. My childhood was great, I am loved and had an 
imense amount of confidence. I have always been athletic and 
maintained an excellent physique.  Women loved me, men admired, or 
so I thought until a hot August night when I left my Gym along the 
central corridor of Phoenix, Az I had no idea what was about to 
happen to me.

I have always maintained do onto others as you would have done unto 
yourself.  My mother tought me to be respectful of others and be 
gracious and never brag.  I was just me. And I never thought ill of 
others as we never know the road someone else has traveled. I 
exhalted in being who I was. I was always happy and joyous with the 
life I had made for myself and the gifts I had recieved at the hand 
of my higher power.  Luckily I had brains in school and was 
employed at a great company in a wonderful position making the 
money my schooling dictated.  I drove a midsize car nothing flashy 
my home was comfortable and I had a respectable investment 
portfolio which no one really knew about.  I wanted women to want 
me for me not my possessions. Your average guy looking for Ms. 
Right, dating developing relationships and hoping for the best.  
Afterall we all have baggage and quirks.  I am a very Physical 
person women and men have found me attractive, I go ok I am just a  
man who's doing the very best he can. I have worked hard to be a 
healthy individual. Looking to Myself for the awnsers never blaming 
anyone for my lot in life and working to improve it.  

On to the part that may have gotten me into the event of Aug 94.  I 
am a natural man I was never mutilated at birth and not allowed to 
know the bliss of my entire sexual self.  I was draped with and 
exquisite foreskin over a above average penis.  French and Norther 
Italian, one of my past lovers measured me during erection or I 
would not know this 11"1/4 by 4"1/2. I enjoyed masturbation and het 
intercourse as well, some would not, some would come back for more. 
I enjoy being nude and belonged to a nudist club in AZ. Men would 
often ask if they could stroke me just to feel a natural cock. I  
would let them, I saw no harm in providing them with an exerience 
they would never have. I never dated a women twice who expected me 
to alter myself just so that she would allow me to have sex with 
her.  I have always thought men made a sacrifice that could never 
be made up to  them no matter what was offered. Yet most don't even 
know what happened to them just after birth.

Tonight a very attractive man in the shower at my gym asked me why 
I didn't have that taken care of pointing at my penis, I of course
replied I am happy just the way I am thankyou! He asked I it felt 
better to have sex with I of course replied I have never been 
without it and I think its like being a jet pilot. A sensation one 
cannot share if one has not experienced it. Now my cock thanks to 
the women I have dated in our mutual hunting grounds is quite a 
piece of knowledge and somewhat renowned.  So I have discontinued 
the interaction of dating my fellow gym goers due to being a 
novelty. However it was still a possibility if the right one came 
along.  

Enter the police with pictures of the crime scene. I am in a bed I 
am in great discomfort strapped to a board like apparatus. Nothing 
is making sense to me What Are They Talking About? Attack, 
attackers, my injuries are repaired but may not heal properly can I 
recognize or describe anyone are they members of the Gym. Who the 
hell are you I think but nothing comes out of my mouth, haze and 
the next image I have is my Father standing over me wiht a could it 
be a tear in his eye? He leans towards me and in my left ear he 
speaks to me. "You were hit in the head in the parking lot of your 
Gym, You have lost most of the hearing in your right ear the 
doctors tell me this is due to the injury to your neck and head, It 
may return in time and you can always choose hearing assistance 
device. Can you hold my hand, I squeeze his hand, Your attackers 
were male according to the witnesses who found you, now i know you 
cannot answer this at the moment but can you think of anyone who 
would want to harm you, what a question of course you can't what 
happend to me why is everyone so sad-they looked so concerned! My 
father drifts away when he returns their is compasion in his eyes I 
am going to help you get through this... this what? I feel 
different and the board like device is gone I hurt but not like the 
last time my father was here.  My father leans close to me and 
speaks,  You are going to hear some very hard things, things I have 
to explain to you I am hear for you so we will get through this 
together,I must have looked very confused, I will go Slowly and I 
will stop if it is to much for you to handle just squeeze my hand 
and I will stop.

Four weeks ago you left your gym around Midnight you were struck 
from behind by what is believed to be a 2x4 of a baseball bat you 
are lucky to be alive and we are all grateful yu are still with us,
ar you ok? I nod, you were then stripped and assulted with a knife, 
it was used to circumscise you I stiffend he clutched my hand, do 
you want me to go on, I nod, while doing this they hacked a part of 
your glans off, then hacked our penis in two. The doctors are very 
happy with your progress, they have save your penis it has blood 
flow all is well, only they could not find your foreskin or the 
part of the glans that was removed.  Did you know Phoenix is a 
reattachment center, I didn't and wish I had never had to find out.

I have been through therapy and am what is considere PTSD I and 
reclusive and nolonger work out I weigh well over 300lbs and take 
several medications a day just to forget  what I recall all too 
easily. The throbbing of my head the voices I hear saying were 
gonna clean you up... you don't deserve such a big cock... you 
frog... The pulling the searing electricity the dull throb as the 
knife cut through my foreskin and my glans the way I tried to move 
my arms and legs and could not the next yank and the nausea that 
followed and the cold how cold it got.

Why when I never made fun of or called hurtful names to other males 
that had been modified when I shared my gift... why would someone 
especially a male harm another... 

Power!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the lack they feel.

I sit here day after day and wonder would I be better without this 
appendage that cannot feel oh I have the ability to piss and it 
hangs there between my legs but it never really gets hard and it 
dose not respond to stimulation.  I read other mens stories and 
want to know should I just get rid of it?