I have no penis anymore as mentioned before. I had a total penectomy done voluntarily three years ago by a surgeon in a hospital. The entire penis was completely removed, including the roots that extend into the pelvis. The urethra was relocated to a new 'pee hole' behind my scrotum. This new opening for the urethra (tube from the bladder) was created between my scrotum (sac for the testicles) and the anus. The testicles remained unchanged and are fully functional. The operation was done by an experienced surgeon who performs many also operations of transsexual people.

The time after surgery was painful in the beginning both physically and psycologically. However the healing of the sutures went without complications. Only minor scars are left, which are hidden behind the pubic hair now. In the days after the operation I had a catheter in bladder until the new pee hole was save to use.

I can still control my urination, because the Sphincter is still in place and working. However I have to squat now as the urine stream is directed downward. I have to pull the scrotum slightly away from the urine stream to avoid getting wet when peeing. There is no way to pee standing without causing a mess. Sometimes it is very inconvenient that the quick pee e.g. when hiking is no longer possible. Also I experience many dirty toilets, which I would have avoided previously. The feeling during urination is completely different from before. Almost immediately the urine flows out of the pee hole once I release it. Also the stream appears to be stronger than before the operation.

The doctor told be that I can still father a child. In this case sperm has to be extracted from my testicles in a small surgery and the used for insemination. In case I can ejaculate by myself only insemination would have to be done.

Sex life has changed dramatically. There is no stump left of my penis, no erectile tissue. I can get some pleasure even after total penectomy. This is the case when sensitive areas such as the scrotum, skin behind the scrotum, and the area surrounding the surgical scars are caressed. Very important is also mental stimulation. I have to admit that due to reduced sensation and absence of the main 'pleasure sensor' my urge for sex has been reduced. Only occasionally I am able to get an orgasm and to ejaculate. My girlfriend Susan is very happy with me (body and behaviour) after the penectomy. She helped me a lot to overcome periods of depression after the surgery. She taught me how to enjoy making love in a peaceful way with touching and licking each other. It is more like lesbians having sex. She definitely gets a lot of stimulation from me. Somehow she already gets exited when she sees me naked.

I have to face some embarrising situations in everyday life as you can imagine. Visiting a doctor is such a situation in the beginning. Usually he is curious untill I have explained everything.

Going to the swimming pool I feel a little bit unsecure as my swimwear looks empty.

When making sports there are difficult situations in the locker room and shower.

I have to suffer sometimes for my nice girlfriend.

But as she is a fantastic woman I am happy to do it.