I enjoy the sensation of a cock sliding in and out of my ass hole. Sometimes I can cumm without even touching my cock. If they guy knows what he is doing. It feels so good. That cock sliding in and out stimulating my prostate. It makes my little 4 inch cock real hard. The pleasure builds up and an orgasm happens in my ass, not my cock and then I shoot cumm without touching myself. But I am not gay. Really. And I have to admit, whacking off and stroking my little wiener while my ass is being banged brings the most incredible orgasms. But I am not gay really. I think the obsession of sucking cock is because mine is so small. I love the feel of a big cock in my hands and mouth. But I am not gay really.

I will explain my reasoning as to why I am not gay.

For starters looking at a guy does not give me an erection. It never has. And I have tried. I can not get it an erection to penetrate a guy.

This all started because of my little wiener. When you have a 4 inch wiener no girl wants to fuck you.

So I started jerking off to porno's. I got tired of constantly renting porn. So I just started going to the peep shows. I would get five dollars in quarters. Go in. Starting watching porn. Get an erection, jerk off, cumm, and then go home. Maybe buy a porno mag for later. The type of porn I like is barely legal girls dressed as cheerleaders or school girls. The younger they look the better. I also like girls with really big tits. My favorite porn stars are Nikki Blonde, Shyla Styles, Nikki Benz, Nikki Rhodes, Cody Lane, Hillary Scott, Veronica Rayne, and many more.

But hey, my wiener is only 4 inches. I will never get a hot girl like that to fuck with. Well, it is a peep show with gloryholes. Eventually some guy stuck his 7 inch hard thick cock through the hole into my room. I was just amazed to see a real cock that big and up close. My four inch wiener is not that thick.

I actually felt at that moment completely unmanned. If I had a cock like that I would be fucking hot women. Instead I am here watching porn and jerking off. I took it in my mouth and sucked away. I had an erection because I was watching porn of barely legal girls. I noticed on other occasions when I was sucking cock before I got the oppurtunity to watch porn that my cock never got hard. Strangely as I watched more porn I began to fantasize about me being that hot sexy girl sucking cock.

Eventually one of the guys I was sucking asked to come into my booth. I let him. He sat down in the chair as I sucked him off. While I was sucking him he started to rub lube on my asshole. As he stroked me I began to get an erection. Which did kinda embarass me. He asked me if I wanted to take it up the ass.

Realize now, I couldn't even tell you what these guys look like. As I never really look them in the face. I agreed, but told him to use lots of lube. He lubed my asshole good, even inside. Then he lubed his cock real good. I stood up and faced the wall where I could see the TV. I remember watching Shyla Styles playing taking it doggy style. I kind of imagined me being her. Oh my cock was getting so hard with him slinging in and out of me. And the lube made everything so slippery. He gave me some lube to put on my hands. I jacked off while he fucked me and when I spurted I had the most incredible orgasm ever.

I really began to fantasize about being the girl alot from that day forward. I did start to watch movies of hot transvestites and hot girls fucking guys up the ass with strapons. But I also still loved barely legal girls.

Now if one of the guys would want me to fuck him, I could not get an erection to do it. I did start to crossdress. I learned to love makeup, high heels, blond wigs, and pantyhose. Pantyhose really give me an erection. Someday I would really like a hot girl to fuck my ass.

Ironically, the gay guys called me a queer and sissy. Some of them did not see themselves as gay because they were not taking it up the ass. I really hated being considered a sissy. Just because I take it up the ass and have a small dick does not make me less of a person.

All I remember of him is that he had a 9 inch cock. I never pay attention to the faces. Because if I do I can't get an erection. I invited him to a hotel. Oh how I loved sucking that massive meat.

Believe it or not, guys with little dicks cumm more and farther than guys with big dicks. The sperm does not have to travel as far to get out. We also recover quicker.

After I sucked him off, I offered him a drink before we could do it again. He accepted a Scotch and Soda. However, I planted a date rape drug in it. Once he was out I did what I wanted to do for so long. I pulled out a Burdizzo and clipped both his cords. I applied an Ice pack to his nuts to hopefully let the swelling die quicker. I don't know if that helped. But I never went back to that same peep show place again. I would love to know what happened to him. But I did not want to go to jail or get the crap beat out of me. So I left and never saw him again.