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It’s embarrassing to talk about this, but my wife wants me to tell the story as a punishment to me. I have been married 10 years now. The first three years were normal, but then I started to look at other women. First it was just looking but then I started fantasizing about them. I got friendly with a number of women and went to lunch with them often at work. My wife just thought it was normal friendships at work. She never suspected my inner most feeling of maybe being unfaithful. I built this close relationship with a woman at work. Her name was Susan. We went to lunch a lot and became good friends. Susan was married too, but they were having problems. She told me she had had a few affairs and her husband didn’t know. He was very overbearing and didn’t pay much attention to her. Steve, her husband, was involved in all kinds of sports, tennis, softball, volleyball, and racket ball. They didn’t have any kids so she spent a lot of time alone. At first she went to all the events and even tried participating. But Steve is an excellent athlete and didn’t like playing with her. She stayed home or went shopping when he did his thing. Anyway, one thing led to another and we had an affair one night. My wife was away on a business meeting and the kids were spending the night at my parents. Patty never suspected and I found it very exciting. Susan and I had a number of encounters but it eventually ended after a few months. We both knew it wasn’t going anywhere and the novelty wore off. I found a couple of other partners over the next few years. I think Patty started to suspect with my second partner, June. She would call the office when I said I would be late and not be there. I would tell her I was in the men’s room or xeroxing something when she called. I started checking my voicemail and calling her back before I went home. I got caught with Karen, my third partner. Patty was working late one night and when I returned her phone call she saw it wasn’t my work number. Even the prefix was different. She has caller id on her phone. She hired a private investigator to follow me. He had all the proof she needed. I was caught. She threatened divorce and taking the kids away. I begged and pleaded. She forgave me. I was good for about 6 months then I met Kim. She was Vietnamese and irresistible to me. I got close to her and we ended up having an affair. I was very careful this time. We only did it during lunchtime away from work. Then she called my wife and said we wanted to be together. Patty went ballistic. She told me that was it. Again I begged and pleaded with her. I told her I would do anything to keep our marriage and family together. She told me she couldn’t trust me anymore. Eventually I convinced her to stay together. But she did make one condition. I had to shave all my pubic hair off. That would be my ‘chastity’ belt. What man would show himself like that to another woman? I of course agreed. So she shaved me. It was actually very exciting being shaved like that. It put some new excitement in our life. After a few months she let me shave her too. Our sex life improved to a new level. I stopped looking at other women and looked forward to going home and having sex with my wife. Patty was very desirable to me again. This went on for about a year. Then Patty started wanting it less and less. I began to look at other woman, but of course with my smooth condition was too embarrassed to do anything. Patty noticed I looked, but probably figured my ‘chastity belt’ worked. I started to get aggressive towards her. I felt oversexed with no release. She only wanted it maybe once every two weeks. I wanted it every night. I was a little crazy then, very moody. One night I exploded and started yelling at her. I think the kids heard and she was very mad. A couple of weeks after that the kids were at her parents for the weekend. Saturday night she seemed to be in the mood. We had sex for the first time in a month. We had a few drinks after and I passed out. When I woke up I couldn’t move. I tried to get up but couldn’t. I was tied down. I looked around and didn’t know where I was. There was something in my mouth but I couldn’t push it out. I saw Patty talking to two other women. They saw me and smiled. I tried to say something but couldn’t. A mouthpiece covered my tongue and I couldn’t say anything, just blow air out. I looked around again and saw I was in some kind of doctor’s office. I was strapped into a medical examination table. I couldn’t move. My feet were in the stirrups and belted in. The table was reclining so I was a tilted upright and could see around. There was a small television on the wall next to the table. Another woman came over to me and said I was awake. Patty came over and kissed me on the forehead. She told me I was a bad boy and she had decided to make sure I wouldn’t ever cheat on her or abuse her again. She introduced the other ladies as Jerry, Sarah, and Soonin. Sarah picked up a video camera and started recording. Patty said Jerry had given her something to put in my drink, some kind of knockout drug. After I was out, the four of them put me in the car and took me to Jerry’s home. Jerry is a doctor and has an office at her house. Since they carried me through the garages, no one saw them take me. They put me in the examining table and waited for me to wake up. Jerry came over and picked up a syringe from the tray next to the table. She started filling it with something from a little vial. I started to get scared. Patty said Jerry was going to fix me. I didn’t know what she meant. Patty saw my expression and explained that they were going to castrate me. That did it. I tried to get free again. I struggle against the belts, but I couldn’t move. I wanted to beg her to let me go, but all I could do was mumble through the mouthpiece. Patty said my testosterone level was too high and that this would take care of that forever. She told me they did this to dogs and horses to make them behave and be more docile. She said this should do the same for me. Sarah continued to use the camera and I could see the picture on the television. Jerry gave me a shot of something between my legs. I felt the alcohol swab and the pinch of the needle. It started going numb there. She did this four or five times. I couldn’t feel a thing in my crotch. Patty said she was considering cutting my prick off too. She saw the panic in my eyes and laughed. She told me to behave and I could keep that piece attached. If I was bad, she would keep it in a jar. I kept saying no, no, no. I tried getting away again, but I was tired and the bonds held. Then I thought she was just trying to scare me and wouldn’t really do it. Soonin cranked the table upright more so I was sitting almost straight up. Patty said she wanted me to see the procedure. Soonin then proceeded to shave my groin area. I was already shaved, but I guess they wanted to be sure there wasn’t anything there. I got an erection from this attention. Patty shook her head and said I was the same and fixing me would be the best thing. Soonin then put a catheter in and the erection went down. Then I saw Jerry pick up a scalpel. It looked like a large xacto knife. She put it against my skin and pushed. I saw her make the cut. It was a lot higher than I thought it should have been. Above my sac actually and not very big, maybe a couple of inches. I felt sick. She used some clamps to hold the cut open. Then she used these long scissor looking things that held some kind of black string. She moved them around and said she was tying off my spermatic cord and blood vessels. Soonin cut the string. Then Jerry went back in and did it again. She said that it was needed to keep it clean. The final cut would be between the two tied off areas. She asked Patty if she wanted to make the final cut. Of course Patty agreed. Soonin gave her a long scissor and Jerry pointed to the spot. Patty smiled at me and made the cut without saying anything. I didn’t feel a thing, but in my head I could feel the cut. Jerry used another long handled tool to pull the free testicle out. It wasn’t what I expected it to look like. It kind of looked like a kidney bean but much bigger and it was soft looking. Like it was a balloon filled with water or something. I had seen drawings of a testicle that showed all the tubing that held the sperm. I was expecting it to look like that, you know like the brain looks with all those lines and ridges. It was smooth and flesh colored with some blue and red blood vessels showing. The severed cords hung off a little and there was some blood on it. Jerry rinsed the testicle in a jar of some kind of liquid. Here’s one, she said as she dropped it in my wife’s hand. Patty played with it some then put in into another jar of liquid. Jerry sewed up the opening and then made another cut on the other side for the second ball. I thought she could do them both from the same cut. But I guess not. Same procedure and Patty was ready to cut again. She told me say goodbye to manhood forever and made the final cut. Jerry took out the ball and rinsed it. Here’s the twin she said as she dropped it in Patty’s hand. Patty played with it some again before dropping it into the jar with the other one. I was crying. I really felt I had lost something. I know it’s just a body part, no different than tonsils really and not as bad as losing a leg or arm, but I felt like I really lost something. Jerry asked Patty if she wanted her to cut off my sac too. I panicked again. I thought maybe they could put my balls back and connect them again. Jerry said the sac would eventually recede and be smooth so it wasn’t necessary, but this would make it cleaner and faster. Patty said sure. I couldn’t watch as Jerry cut away the sac and sewed it shut. I’ve seen the video since and know she tied off several veins and sewed it shut using the same black stitches. I cried the entire time. Then Jerry asked if she wanted my penis removed. I tried again to move but was too exhausted. Patty asked if I could still get an erection. Jerry said yes. Patty said to let me keep it. Maybe she might want me to perform once and a while. There was some blood around the stitches and it looked like a mess. I couldn’t stand to look at the damage. Jerry gave me a shot of something in the butt and I passed out again. When I awoke, I was back home in our bed. I thought maybe it was a dream. I reached between my legs and felt my prick. It had a tube coming out of it. Then I went further down and felt nothing. I cried again. The area between my legs was sore. I still couldn’t move. I wasn’t tied down or anything, but it hurt too much to move. Patty came by and smiled. She said she hoped I learned my lesson and would be a better husband for it. I wanted to strangle her, but didn’t have the strength or even the desire to do it. I was in bed for three days. I needed help getting up and going to the bathroom. I had the catheter for two days. Soonin came by on the third to remove it. Even pissing hurt after that. But that evening it stopped hurting. My groin was still sore and looked bruised. I felt sick in my stomach a lot of the time, but Patty said it was psychological. After a week, Jerry came by and cut the stitches away. Sarah was with her and video taped it. The skin was smooth with a little line where the wound had healed. When they touched it, I could feel it, but it was a little numb. Jerry said I would never feel it like before, but that sensation would eventually return. After another week we went to her office for a final checkup. She asked if I had had an erection yet. I was embarrassed but told her no. She told me to try right there. So with Jerry, Soonin, Patty, and Sarah filming I tried. I got an erection. What a relief. It still worked. Jerry told me to continue until I came. I didn’t want to. Patty told me to or she would show the video to my friends. I masturbated until I came. It felt good and I began to feel like a man again for the first time again. The semen was caught in a beaker. It looked the same to me but not much and maybe clearer. I don’t know. Jerry took the sample and looked at it under a microscope and said it was free of any sperm. I got dressed and we left. Patty drove and didn’t say anything to me on the way home. When we got there she asked me if I hated her or if I wanted to leave. What could I say? In my condition there wouldn’t be anyone else for me. I still love her and the kids. So I told her that. We are still together. That was 3 years ago. I have since learned that Jerry, actually Geraldine, was a friend of Sarah. Patty met Sarah at the local health club and they became friends. They talked about everything and Sarah told Patty that she had the same problems we were having. But everything was fine now. Patty of course asked how? Then Sarah told her she had Ed, her husband, ‘fixed’. She explained that Ed was castrated by a doctor friend of hers, Jerry. So after months of thinking about it Patty met and talked to Jerry. They became friends too. Soonin is Jerry’s nurse. Later I found out that Jerry is a lesbian and Soonin is her lover too. But that was how these ladies got together. I haven’t met Ed and don’t want to. It would be too embarrassing. The operation did change my behavior. I don’t know if it’s psychological or hormonal. I am less aggressive and my sex drive is not very high. I still get aroused and in the mood, but I don’t get mad if Patty says no. My voice did not change, I haven’t grown breasts, my facial hair still grows, I can get an erection, I can still come, and I am not homosexual. None of the stereotypes you hear about. I still have to shave my face, but not as often. Jerry is now our family doctor, how could I go to anyone else. Patty keeps my balls in a jar locked up in a safe deposit box at the bank. She threw out my sac. It kind of shriveled up in the jar and didn’t look like anything. The balls changed color after a while and don’t have that healthy flesh color anymore. Sarah told her she should have my balls made into earrings or a pendant. She had Ed’s made into earrings. Sarah wore them a few times to show them. She said they have to be boiled first to make them firm then dipped in gold. Sarah has a jeweler friend who could do the dipping and put the ear clip on. I figured her friend’s husband is probably ‘fixed’ too. I never asked. We occasionally watch the video. Patty finds it boring, I find it a painful memory. But she makes me watch it when I start acting up. We will probably toss it someday, soon I hope. Behaviorally I have changed, but our married life continues as normal. We still love each other and enjoy each others company. Nothing has really changed in that regard. We still have sex occasionally and I am not so demanding as before. Patty even gave me a blow job for the first time in our marriage a few months back. I perform oral sex on her too now. We both enjoy it. Yes I still have orgasms, but I don’t think they are as intense as before. I don’t know. Psychological? The kids don’t know anything about me being fixed and I don’t think she has told anyone else. Of course I haven’t told anyone. I still look at women, but not with the same desire as before. Again I don’t know if this is psychological or if my desire has really been reduced. I don’t even think about having any more affairs. But that is my story. What have I learned? Be faithful to your wife and if you can’t, get a divorce. Patty is laughing.
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