All has started when i have met my last girlfriend, two years ago. She was a 25 years old blonde fantastic and sexy shemale, the bast of all of them i had before. I liked her small but firm breasts, her great sexy bottom, her long athlethic legs, but above all her slutty behaviour that made hard my cock all the day... I was also excited by her strange and very promiscuouses sexual phantasies. She was fascined by the idea that her boyfriend (and on that case, i was the one) could try some gay experiences on front of her. On those moments, i was so turned on, that i started to find the idea to play gay sex with some beautifoul guy at her presence very actractive... So frequently we used to go to some gay parties and to meet there a gay guy interested to enjoy with us the wishes of my girlfriend.

At the beginning i was embarassed by such a situation, me being naked with another man while my shemale girlfriend sat clothed in front of us... I thought to feel a bit of repulsion on kiss and mix my tongue with that of a man. Instead i felt this new experience very exciting and pleasant... As soon as i began to kiss and lick with him, i didn't remember about my girlfriend who was looking at us, behaving as if i was alone. The first times the boys who made love with me were sexually passives, so i fucked them or i enjoied their ability to suck my dick and swallow all of my cum.

Yet, my girlfriend was curious to see me to do the bottom on a gay intercourse, and sincerely i wanted to try it too... I had just discovered this new way to live my sexuality, and i was excited by the idea to explore it completely... Many times, during all the previouses intercourses with my bottom partners, i was attempted to suck their cocks... Now was come the moment that i would have make this desire into reality. So, i discovered to be a cocksucker... I liked the taste of a big dick into my mouth, and more again the taste of the sperm, while the top boy masturbated me fingering my ass... I enjoied to be fucked up my ass too, only at the beginning i have suffered the pain due at its virginity, but i was so excited on those moments that absolutely i wanted a cock into my mouth, so my ideal condition would have been to be fucked by two men, one filling my ass and the other my mouth...

So, in a month's time, i was transformed from an only straight stud into a bisexual bottom cocksucker, while my girlfriend was present to enjoy the show. This transformation made me more in confidence with her, now both of us knew the taste of male sperm, the sensation to be passive on the intercourse... We were so become a special couple, no more a classical girlfriend and boyfriend couple. I was enthusiastic to know that she was observing me with exctitation, while i was servicing two well endowed studs with my mouth and my ass. When the boys, happies to have emptied their balls into my body, leave us, sex with her was fantastic, cause both of us were so excited!

Frequently, after the sex, she spoke about her intentions for the future, about the sex riassignement surgery that would have given her a pussy instead of her penis. And, admiring my big penis, she loved to say about what a great pussy could be obtained from it. So, we began to argue how would have been possible make me into a woman, wich surgeries and solutions could be necessaries for me. We spoke seriously, as if the intention to change me into a girl might be real, and this was a part of the game.

So, an evening, she has proposed me to try her pills... It would have been only a game, a part of our game. Previously, she had frequently laughed during our lovemakings about my not being more a real man, cause my status of bottom cocksucker, and that consequently i didn't need my dick and balls anymore. These words of her turned me on more again, and i fucked her stronger than before. So, i accepted her proposal, starting to take her pills for chemichal castration, the Androcur. At the start, i didn't feel too great changements, still i was excited altough my dick appeared a bit less reactive than before, but above all i felt a strange sensation on my nipples, as these were opening... But, augmenting the doses to 200 gr. twice the day, and drinking too much water for expell my testosterone through the urine,  quickly i started to notice how my body was changing. My erections were more rares and difficoult to obtain and to keep, moreover my sperm wasn't the same of some weeks before. At the beginning my spurts were plentifuls, of white color and thicks, now my cum was becoming still more lacking, watery and fluid. And while before i might normally cum four or fives times at night, now was very hard to cum more than two or three, and it was longer to orgasm. To oppose the hot flashes, i took birth control pills, and this it was the reason of my so fast feminization.

Although my visible lack of manhood, i wasn't depressed cause i found it too much exciting... Fuck with my shemale girlfriend was becoming still more difficoult, at least according to the classical vision of a couple, but i enjoied the new sensations originate from my body on transformation. The touch of an hand on my butt and on my nipples caused on me an excitation similar at that i felt when i was a total male and a girl manipulated and caressed my dick and balls.

Still i continued my gay sessions in front of my girlfriend. How she said, I didn't need an hard dick to do the bottom between two top boy full of testosterone, while i needed it after, when we were alones. In any case, to see a slutty feminized cocksucker with an allways limp dick between his thighs was a great turn on for the men who fucked me, and for my shemale girlfriend too. Also i have started to keep shaved my body, except for a small feminine bush on my pubis, how advised by my girlfriend, so when i was naked i looked every day more feminine than the previous. Cause the female hormones contained into the birth control pills, and the lack of testosterone, my fat distribution was concentrating on my chest, hips, butt and thighs, giving to my body a feminine shape. I was become the ideal bottom guy.

When the men were gone and me and my girlfriend were alones, she started to test my remained ability to do penetrative sex, to be still a functioning boy, able to make love how a straight man and not only as the second whore of the couple.

She began to suck my dick, trying to make it hard, also with the purpose to value how much was reduced from the start of my chimical treatment. My testicles indeed were become visibly smaller; i knew that were soon to be athrophized. She measured everything of my sex equipment, laughing about what it was and what now it was become. Anyhow, still i might achieve a decent erection, even though was necessary a few of ability for keep it, while i needed a longer quantity of time to have an orgasm. Penetrate her ass was difficoult without a really hard cock, she had to drive it into her with the fingers, and often it come back limp during the intercourse, so she had to masturbate me again till i obtained a new good erection. To help me on it, she licked my nipples, which were become too sensitive on these ultimate weeks; around my nipples were increasing small breast, as those of a thirteen year old girl. When at last i cum, only some watery drop came out from my semi hard dick. 

I noticed who she was less interested on me. Indeed, she missed a real man to satisfy her needs, given that i wasn't able to do it anymore. And cause now  i wasn't  more virile than her, i licked her dick and i let her fuck me up the ass. She liked to spurt her cum above my balls, and then laugh saing who never she could have thought to be the top with an other "man".

And so, a day, after she had attempted whithout sucess to make my dick hard, observing me seriously into the eyes, she confessed me about her need to find a real man for a relationship. I was no more a boy able to make her feel as a woman, rather i was no more a boy. Looking at what was become my body, at what i had between my thighs, i had to admit it. So, she wanted to keep me as a friend, a girly friend able to understand what means to be a woman, or better, a shemale, and what means make sex with men. We would have continued our sex promiscuous life, but no more as lovers. I accepted it.

Some weeks after, she presented me her new boyfriend. A very muscolar and nice boy, with an huge bulge between his legs. I thought about the difference between he and me, about how feminine and boyless have become my body on less than two years. That evening, we fucked all three together... I felt so good to be handled by such a good stud. And i thought when i done the same with my girlfriends. When i fucked my beautifoul shemale girlfriend at the same way of him. I will never be able to do it anymore.

Now, what am I? Well, i am happy of what i have become with the chemical castration and the feminization of my body. I have discovered an important side of my sexuality. I like my body too, its being soft and smooth, my round butt, and my nice and smalls breasts. I like to look at me at a mirror, wearing a provocative bikini or small lingerie.

Indeed, i am shy to show me at my friends and generally to all the people who know me and how it was my body before. It would be difficoult to explain them what's happening. Sometimes i have thought about what would say my old girlfriends, if them could know about what's become of me...! Cause of it, this last summer i have prefered to stay at my home, and get brown on my garden, where i can also stay naked, insted of a beach. I am gone only on some beach for gay and transex people, where i have no problem to show my feminized body and my almost smooth crotch. There i have met new friends too. Occasionally i have enjoied sex with someone of them, but till now i have not again involved on a relationship. On the beach also i have met a 16 years old lesbian girl, we are become friends and once she has used the strapon on me... It's so strange to think who i am castrated and still able to be excited, but i like it. I am now totally unable to achieve an erection. My penis is shrunk to nothing, and dangle between my thighs as a clit more big of a normal woman's clit. Cause it, sometime i am no more able to pee stand up, but is not a drag for me, cause i am now used to do it squatting or sitting down as a girl, and it's one of the sexier things for me... Also my balls sack is almost completely disappeared. It was compact and small when i was a real boy, now doesn't exist anymore... And its content, is totally atrophized. Sure, i will never penetrate a woman on future: i could be useful to her only for lesbian sex. I used to observe too many pornographic images when still i was a "real boy"... I didn't have throw it from my pc, sometime i like to look it and, really, i don't felt regret for what is happened to me. The vision of those beautifoul sexy girls, with their gorgeous bodies and well visible pussy, as for say "what are you waiting? fuck me, am i all of yours", excite me (i cannot more say "make my hard"...), but also i know that i will never have back my dick to screw them... and, with my feminized body, now i am more one of them, than a male. So, if i have to make a choiche, i prefer to be a woman with the women and with the men. It's indeed easier for me. Only who knew me as a boy, still continue to think about me as a boy. But, who knows, maybe someday i will have me too a nice fuckable pussy between my legs...