I finally committed the act and am now a eunuch.
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I am an older single male and have played with the idea of castration for some time. I purchased an elastrator from the local farm store and have played with it for some time but every time I decided to leave the bands on the pain would be too much and I would change my mind and cut them off. I was at the farm store a few days ago and walked by the display and was looking at the burdizzo tools and decided to purchase one thinking that I might find someone to help me complete the change. I had made some inquires but since I live in a small midwestern area there area not a lot of contacts to be made. I had done a lot of research and found that the only problem with using the burdizzo yourself was the fact that unless you closed the jaws quickly the pain would stop you. I finally made the decision last weekend that I was going to try it. I was already shaved since I found playing with the elastrator was easier if you are shaved. I made all the preparations, I decided to try to inject my sack with some lidocaine to maybe help reduce the initial pain. I started by placing pillows on the bed to elevate my crotch so I could see better along with some mirrors. I taped my cock to my stomach so it would be out of the way. I rigged some rope so I could tie my legs apart because I figured the biggest problem would be the urge to slam my legs shut once I started. I placed the phone within reach just in case anything went wrong. I tied a cord to the end of the bed and around my sack so that my sack would be stretched out so I could find the cords better and I was worried that after I got the first side done I might not be able to get the other one to come down. I fixed up the lidocaine and injected both sides of my sack, feeling only a slight sting as the needle pierced my sack which quickly went away as I injected the solution. I waited a few minutes and decided I was ready. I decided to try the right side first since it seemed easier to reach. I placed the burdizzo over the side of my extended sack and made sure that the cords were well inside the jaws. I had tied my feet apart so I could not move them closed and after taking a few deep breaths slammed the jaws closed. I felt nothing for just a couple seconds and then the pain jumped at once to the lower back and down my leg but I had closed the jaws and released my grip on the handles so I could not change my mind and as I lay there waiting for the pain to wash over me I watched the clock and after two minutes I knew that my right ball was gone. I struggled up and opened the jaws of the burdizzo. I could see the well outlined marks the jaws had left on my sack and see that the ball had started to turn blue and black and was no longer going to function. I waited a while for a round of light headness to pass and decided to try to do the other side before I changed my mind. I placed the burdizzo jaws on the cords on the left side and after turning slightly was able to get a good grasp on the handles. Thinking to myself that it was now or never I started to take some deep breaths and I dont remember how many but at some point I slammed the handles down forcing the jaws closed on my sack. This time the pain was a lot worse and I almost passed out as the pain radiated up my back and down my legs almost causing me to vomit. I lay on the bed for a long time waiting for the pain to pass and finally was able to reach up and remove the burdizzo and admire my handiwork. I could see the two grooves from the jaws of the burdizzo on each side of my sack and both balls were black and blue and surely no longer able to function. I removed the cord from around my sack and watched as my sack immediately drew up to my body. I untied my feet and sat on the edge of the bed waiting to see what was going to happen next. I was still in some pain and found some pain pills which a short time later took the edge off it. I am walking very carefully but have had no other problems at this time. I plan to remove my sack in the next few days if everything goes right. I really think that this burdizzo is the way to go because there is not loss of blood. I have a friend who has hinted about castration but not sure if he is for real but if he is I have the tools to make his wish come true.