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I was now beet red in the face. Discussion of my penectomy fetish with another living soul,much less a person of the opposite sex was something I had never ventured.But I quickly calmed down and called upon the same testosterone that allowed many of the friends I had while growing up to summon enough courage to make an effective approach to a member of the opposite sex.My childhood experiences prevented the easy deployment of testosterone which I have in abundance towards some of these normal life experiences. My unique psychological make up contributed to put the opposite sex out of reach early in life( I will elaborate later on) but at this moment I was not going to reject this girl's advances. "what's your name?" Iasked shyly and tentatively.She now looked crossed and suddenly dug her fingernails into my glans penis."You know perfectly well how you're to address me" she said condescendingly.I pulled her hand away from my privates. she immediately brought her knee up to my groin.i howled in pain but quickly got up and zipped up my pants and told her she was crazy.Even as I was running from her she shouted back at me "You know i own you, you can't run away from me". I surrendered to the pain in my groin 2 blocks further on, crawling under the nearby bushes into the fetal position,closing my eyes as I waited for the pain to pass.The sickening nauseous feeling was passing but now i realized that i was still hurting. i slowly unzipped my zipped and saw some blood slowly ooze out of my fly.My foreskin was caught when i had zipped it up hastily. When i came back to my house my body quickly gave way to exhaution and I fell asleep on the living room couch.In my dream I dreamt again of her... I woke up feeling a bit better. It was saturday. i usually play a practice session of chess but today i called my friend Ivan and told him I didn't feel up to it.he was concerned but I quickly hung up the phone.I'm an avid student of the game,improving my skills towards professional standard.I just sat at my desk and followed a game in my mind.I strained to concentrate on the pieces but my vision was foggy,all the pieces soon disapppeared from my view except the black queen and white's king.her face was the girl from the university's,walking down a Large chess board I know found myself on. Her heels echoing on the checkered floor. She was dressed all in black, her long flowing dress flowing as a light breeze blew the hem up, revealing her beautiful slender legs, her skin was white and creamy contrasting sharply with her attire. She smiled at me evilly. i tensed up as she came closer and closer.I suddenly realized I was dressed only in a thin white robe, completely nude under it. She walked over the many fallen chess pieces, the fallen pawns would be about thfour feet tall were they standing upright. I knew something bad was going to happen to me but some how my body was strangely immobilised.Every nerve in my body was telling me to run but I couldn't move.The woman continued to approach me until we stood nose to nose, penis to vagina.Wham! she bent down and pulled my legs from under me and I landed flat on my back. Still immobilised,I felt the light cotton robe being pulled over my head.I was completely naked.I was scared but at the same time extremly aroused.I still didn't understand why I was paralysed, whether from fear or from the sexual tension.She climbed on top of me lowered her mouth towards my now erect penis. She put her lips around my cockhead and sucked up and down my shaft."OH Ah" I moaned as every nerve in my body was in pure ecstasy. My she pulled my saliva covered penis out of her mouth.I missed it so much that suddenly my hand reached for my penis but was brushed aside. She held my pulsing prick in one hand and then suddenly I felt a searing pain in my groin as she swiped down on my penis,now cut off at the base. Blood was gushing out of the newly made hole at my groin as she held my bloody penis in one hand and an eight inch knife with a red handle in the other. I was wailing in the most intense pain .Adrenaline shot through my body and the blood gushed out faster.She said"checkmate ,baby".My penis was thrown eight huge black and white squares away."Harold!" she screeched beckoningly. A man dressed in black appeared and got down on his knees putting his head under her dress and apparently pleasured her while saying over and over"thank you mistress".They then faded away from view. I ran to the where my penis was thrown. I picked it up and ran towards a hospital i saw in the middle of the board. Entering the emergency ward I shouted frantically for a surgeon. The nurse at the desk asked what was the emergency.I uncovered my hand from my groin. She quickly got a surgeon to whom I then told of my injury. He asked me whether I had recovered the penis.I opened my hand and instead of my penis, all it revealed was a white king from a chess set instead of my penis as I stared in horror.AHHHHGH! I screamed as I opened the eyes I didn't know I had closed. The sun was just coming up. I was in my study. I looked down at my groin. it was still bloody from the injury with the zipper but otherwise intact. That evening I was back at the university but didn't see the girl working at the desk. Today it was just a balding middle aged man at the console. I was looking up the latest stories from the archive as usual.I realised that I some how knew that girl that was working at the desk. She was very familiar. I realised at some level that she wasmy destiny. She knew about my insecurities about the opposite sex. I needed a woman who would understand. I knew her my whole life. On monday I set out to learn self hypnosis in order to explore whre i knew that girl from and why I had such a problem forming relationships with the opposite sex. These sessions would lead to the start of my penectomy fantasies which will bring me back to my childhood to be continued....
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