Aaron and Angie - Part 4

I pause now in my confession to stongly, no- Emphatically encourage you not to do as I have done. If you are afflicted with the same tendencies as I was, then the only relief that I can suggest is to part ways with those hateful things, even today, before you hurt anyone else. Your family members will understand if you explain that it is for their own protection. Hell, they might even want help. Yes, there will be changes afterward, but anything is better than living the rest of your days alone, with terrible guilt of having ruined the ones you loved the most. Seek medical help if you can afford it, and mental help if it is available to you and you are brave enough to face your demons. In my opinion,I still feel that castration is the only cure. Who among us can willingly and dedicatedly stick to chemical castration?? Or who can willingly turn themselves in or even be completely honest with their consoler or psychologist. There is a cure, and I should have taken it when I was twenty!! But in the end I dropped the balls,and now I,m alone, and in exile.

I,ll tell the story as hot and sexy as I can. Those old feelings have resurfaced as my physician was only too willing to precribe to me some powerful androgens. I have become something of a challenge to him I guess, He precribes the drugs, and I don,t use them. He then precribes higher doses ,as my testosterone is still too low. I am on track now though, mostly for you, beloved reader. I want to tell it as hot and steamy as I can with all the details written out in print. I know that most of you will get a hell of a thrill out of it, and the truth is the last couple of days I have been too. After it is told I'll let my blood go back down to the previous low levels, and I'll go back to trying to grow breasts.

I was in quite abit of pain. I was walking around bent over, and the girls were hanging off my arms to make sure I didn,t fall again. They were worried about me. I hobbled over to the gate and let myself out. I made my way over to the barn with the girls in tow. We got into the shade of the structure, and I found a half steel barrel to gently lower my ass on to.Angie did likewise, and Wendy kneeled in front of me. Wendy was still expressing her apologies,she said," Dad I am really sorry." "I had no idea that you would almost die." " You promise you won't tell Mom?"

I again assured her of that,and told her I was ok. I said, " Wendy,whatever you do don't you ever touch me with that thing again." As I spoke she was kneeling in front of me, and I watched her gaze slowly lower to my groin. I rememberd my hole in my pants, and went to cross my legs. I couldn't do that, but I put them together as best as I could.

Wendy said," Angie was right, I thought she was lieing." " When the boy animals start to get castrated their dicks jerk up and down, and that white stuff squirts out- just like she said" she said with wonder, and cocked her head to one side as she tried to look into my trousers.

Angie snapped at her," That only happens some times!" " Now leave Dad alone, and quit trying to see his thing." " You have done seen enough already!" " Why don't you go up to the house, bring back some coffee, and leave the poor guy alone."

Wendy pouted sullenly, and looked up at me. I nodded my head, and reached out to run my fingers through her hair. "It's ok Wendy, I still love you," I said. I grabbed her elbow and pulled her closer, and gave her a hug. I added, "I Would really love a cup of coffee." " Could you be a sweetheart and go fill the thermos, and bring a couple of cups?"

She smiled eagerly, and said," Sure Dad, if Mom didn't drink it all." She got up, and ran off toward the house,and our little black and white cow dog ran after her.

After she had dissapeared Angie spoke up," That really hurt didn't it?" I agreed with a nod of my head while I looked deep in her eyes to try to see where this was going. She didn,t seem angry , but I was being cautious. She said, " Do you know what happened?" I shook my head slowly,and watched her face. She shook her head alittle in disbelief, and giggled softly. That little laugh eased my worries, and I relaxed some. She started to tell it from her point of view.

She said, " I know that you had told me about the sperm, and how it comes out to make babies when the penis is in the girls pussy, but I was really suprized that it just squirted out when I reached out and squeezed your penis the first time." " It feels good doesn,t it?" I nodded my head shamefully. She said," You really can't stop it from happening can you?" I shook my head slowly,and stared at her feet. She said," I know I shouldn't have grabbed it like that, but I just couldn't resist...I mean it isn't the first time that I touched it." "You didn't mind did you?"

I cleared my throat and stammered," No, I didn't mind at all, I mean it a was... well, I had a..." " I guess that it was just really sensitive...I mean..." " I had an earth shaking orgasm, Angie, I should thankyou, but I'm your father and athough we play around alot... wrestling and all, it isn't....well...." I trailed off.

"That just makes it that much more fun." she said. She added," I never saw anything like that before in my life." The way your back arched and the look on your face, I thought for a second you were having a heart attack." "Then your thing was like pumping, and all that white stuff kept squirting out." " I didn't think it was gross or anything." " It didn't make you mad when I rubbed a little in your hair did it?" I shook my head again. She continued," Do you get horny when we do the castrations?"

I replied, " Yes, I guess it turns me on.

She said," Yea, me too." " I don't know why, but it is my favorite thing to around here, and I look forward to it when we haven't done it for a while like last winter." " I want to do the old bull." " When can we turn him into a steer Aaron?" "He has the biggest balls of any animal on the place."

I said, " Not for a while yet sweety, and those aren't called steers when they get cut, those are bullocks." I asked," But what about that business with the cattle prod, why did you let her do that...?"

She answered," I'm sorry." " I didn't think that it would effect you like that." "It made me mad that you let your penis fall right out of your pants like that, right in front of Wendy." " Your balls were back out too." She could see everything." " And it was all swelled up again like before."

I said," I,m sorry about that, it's these stupid pants,and I'm all out of clean underwear." " I can't get your mother to do any sewing, and I didn't want to get my good pants dirty."

"Excuses excuses!" she cut in. " Well, I wasn't really mad." " I mean I've been teaching her how to wrestle, and I told her all about penises and testicles." " I told her all about how the boy animals make the girl animals pregnant and all." "I Was just alittle mad about you sticking it in her face, so when she picked up the prod I didn't stop her. " I thought it would be funny to see your butt go up, and maybe you would make a mooooo.. noise." She giggled again. I groaned and rubbed my aching dick. She said "You don't remember what happened do you?" I shook my head again. She went on, " Your penis was down against the calve's back, it was rubbing it's back." It was all puffed up again and red colored like before." " This big gray horsefly was walking around on the underneath part looking for a place to bite" " You couldn't feel that?"

"I just felt it pressing against the hair of the calf." I lied. "But it was really sensitive, and I was horny from watching you cutting the sac and all." I added.

She said,"We both saw what was happening ,but we weren't going to say anything, because it was funny, and I think that it is your own fault if you let your penis slip out like that, it should get bit." "Well, The fly started to bite, you could see it's head go down and all." " You were busy with the knot, and we just watched." "You couldn't feel it biteing could you?"

I said, " No I couldn,t feel it at all." "It must be like when they bite you on the toe, you can't feel that either until it is too late, and then your toe swells up three times its size and itches like hell for a week."

She nodded as that made sense to her,and said, " Well, it bit the hell out of your dick Dad." " Is it going to swell up three times it's regular size now?" and laughed. "Lets see." she said and grabbed my knee. ( I kept my knees close together) She laughed some more and continued," You just kept on working,all laid out over that calf, and all the while you had this great big horsefly chewing the hell out of your penis." " That thing of yours looked like it was ready to burst." " It started twitching and all, You didn't seem to notice." "Wendy got this mischievous look on her face, and picked up the cattle prod." " She looked at me and smiled kind of sneaky like... like kind of mean...you know." " Guess I should have stopped her..." " Well she just took and put it between your legs and touched it right onto your dick and that big old fly." "Hmmm... I wonder whether she zapped that fly dead..."

I said " Jesus that hurt!!!" She looked up and her face brightened, she said," Then you should have seen what happened next!" " You like gave this big jerk, and squirted a bunch more of that white stuff out of your dick." "Then you were like twitching on the ground and more of that stuff was coming out." You were jerking like that, and I rolled you over on your back to see if we had to get help. You were moaning and breathing and trying to hold yourself down there." "Then you like went still" "Wendy started laughing really hard,and I got mad at her." " I said,"You killed him you idiot.""But you were still breathing and all." "I made her help me get your pants off so I could see if she broke your dick." "It had disapeared back into that hole it was poking out of." "That is why you had your pants off." "Don't you remember?"

I shook my head , and she continued," So does it still hurt?" I answered, " Yea, it does." She went on, "So that white stuff is the sperm that they make babies out of?" I nodded yes. " And to make a baby it has to be up inside my pussy right?" " I mean I won't get a baby if I get it on my hands right?" I nodded again. " What if I accidently got some on my underwear?" I said, " It has to be way up inside your pussy." She said," Like in the wet part right?" I said," No sweety, like up inside the hole." She came back with," I don't think I have a hole there, I mean it hurts if I try to stick my finger in, but it feels really good if I rub on the outside,so if I got some of your sperm on the wet parts inside I,d get a baby....?" I said, " I'll tell you more about it later."

Then she said," Let me see your penis and see if it is alright." Now, you would think that after all I'd been though that I would have been ready to call it a day ,but oh-no there I go again being a total perv.. I opened my legs alittle and she pried them open the rest of the way. The hole in my trousers gave her good enough admittance. She looked in at my manhood, injured and swollen, and started to reach out with her twelve year old hand. I watched as her hand disapeared into my pants and felt her cool small fingers close gently about my painful swollen member. She drew it out of my trousers and looked at it. She gave a low whistle, and said,"That baby looks sore!" It was the very first time I let her hold it without any pretenses or games, with complete knowledge of what we were both doing. Another first.

The end was an angry bright red and the skin was stretched to the point of splitting. It looked very sore, but it didn't feel that bad. I mostly wanted her to softly run her fingers over the tortured engorged end.... or maybe give it a little kiss... a tiny bit of tongue. That would cool it down and reduce the swelling.

I said," Angie why don't you give it a little kiss so it will get better."(Another first) She looked up at me and smiled sweetly and for a moment I thought she would, but she said instead," I think it will be ok, But it might help to put some ice on it." " If it gets any bigger it will split open and then we,ll have to all go to town." " Maybe that would be a good thing." She smiled and gave it a tiny playful squeeze. "We could go shopping, and buy you some underwear....." She laughed.

She went on to tell me how she let the calf out, and about my return to consciousness, and about holding my dick when I came to. She asked a few more questions about babies,sperm,and the nature of her own virgin sex. I was getting my perverted wind back in my sails again. Before long Wendy was back,and Angie and I had a cup of brew. In another half an hour or so things had settled down to a point that I felt well enough to go back to work. By lunch we had the rest of the calves turned into steers and the huge bowl was a quarter of the way filled. The girls got to see the family jewels swinging around the backside of a few more calves,but nobody tried zapping them with the cattle prod. Later I checked the setting on that cursed thing and saw that it was all the way up to ten. I wonder who turned it up. Back at the house it was quiet. Tammy was stoned and Ricky was out back playing in the dirt. I washed the testes and put them in the fredge.

Later that week Angie approached me with more questions about sex. She came out of the bath with a towel around her thin body and her long blond hair dripping water everywhere she went. Tammy was asleep, and Ricky and Wendy were in his room playing. Angie joined me on the couch. She was chattering on about something. Soon she had turned her body toward me,and brought one of her legs up on the couch. In another moment or two she had raised her knee alittle. I had to look... I could see the length of her thigh,and her smooth skin seemed to go on forever. I could almost see the edge of her labia major, and that fold where her leg joins to her torso. The golden fur on her inner thigh was dimly visible. I started to pay close attention to what she was saying- wanting her to stay here on the couch and give me a little peek for as long as was possible. She was saying that her pussy didn't have a hole for making babies and that she was afraid of being a freak. I stared at the darkened recesses under the towel, and then back to her face. The leg came up a tiny bit more. I looked back, and saw the lower part of her lovely virgin fold, and the undersides of her butt cheeks. She said," I've been in the bath tonight trying to find it, and I can,t quite see it and it hurts when I try to stick my finger in there and it wont go. I think that it isn't there like you said." I said," You shouldn't worry about that yet sweety, besides your still too young to have a baby." I could see the fine hair running down the sides of her fold. It was still just peach fuzz. I was looking back and forth between her face and the darkened recess under the towel.

She lifted her knee up a little farther and now I could see her labia minor kissing togething in their perfect little cleft. My erection swelled up in my pants. This was quietly noted as she said," I want you to look at it and tell me if it is normal or not" She had a worried look on her face as she bit her bottom lip. I shallowed hard,and said," Ok sweety."

She lifted the edge of the towel and revealed her holy of holies. The lighting was perfect and I,ll never forget. She had never openly just stuck it in my face before,and demanded that I look. Oh I had seen it almost every day since she was five, but this was differant. My boner was standing straight up in my thin pants. It couldn,t have been missed.

She had a small triangle of true pubic hair that was sandy brown color. All the little hairs seemed to flow together as they rode the rise of her mons,and then ran toward the fleshy protuberance of her clitoris. The pearl of great worth was hidden under the long narrow ridge, and the thin golden hairs seemed to all point the way to that hidden treasure. Her labia majora press together with fleshy rises the inner folds of the labium minor , and those only partially seen appear to embrace and twine together as if in a kiss. The fleshly petals of her flower were closed now, but I intended to open them shortly. I had to see again..... In fact they were begining to spread abit now as she brought her other leg up on the couch. My breathing increased. My heart raced.

I said," I'm sure that you are fine Angie, you're just a virgin that is all." " I would be honored to look at your lovely little puss." I said," Here you lie down on the couch,and put your legs up here,and spread them a little... there... that's perfect." She said," I'm sorry that it is so ugly down there with those flaps of skin sticking out and all." I said," Who told you that that is ugly, I think it is the most beatiful sight in the whole world." (I was telling it straight too) She said,"Mommy said I had an ugly little snatch,and it was nothing,but trouble." I said,"Never mind your mother,she's been smoking way too much of that shit lately." "Your little 'snatch'is the most perfect petite,and beautiful thing of all." " Just think about how much I,m always trying to look at it." "Would I be always trying to look at something that was ugly?"

I heard her sigh alittle and relax. As she did she spread her legs abit more,and the towel opened over her titties. She was so lovely,her titties weren't more than a tiny handful with a light tan circle around each pink nipple. The nipple was protruding more than usual.

I knelt by the sofa at her side,and placed a hand on her firm belly,and ran my finger tips down the inside of her thigh ever so lightly. Then I did that again, Her pussy was totally open to me, and there was lots of light to see every detail. As I watched she spread her legs alittle more,and I watched as her Labia minora unparted,and came open. While I stroked the inside of her thigh ever so lightly toward that center of the universe, my other hand on her belly twirled,and played with her thin pubes. I was going to take my time with this. As I made my way slowly down into the furrow of her clitoral ridge her respiration increased. I licked my finger, but her eyes were closed. I slid my moistened finger along the delicate sides of her clitoral hood. My God, she moaned! I kept up with the light brushing on the insides of her thighs now down even to the margins of her labia. Her legs dropped open even farther. I moistened my finger again,and probed gently back under the sensitive,and excitable tissue around the end of her clitoris. I preceived that it engorged slightly and felt it respond under my fingertip. She drew in a breath as I pressed in on the hard knot of that sensuous organ,and I watched her eyes move under her lashes as she let it out as another moan. These were clearly sexual responses. I started to circle lightly around her labia with my other hand, gliding my fingers ever-so-lightly over her downy smooth peach fuzz,and touching her protuberant little lips.I moistened the fingers of my other hand as I steadly worked the other finger over her clit. The little bulb of flesh was fully engorged,and I could see it as I rubbed it,and pushed back the delicate layer of skin which covers it. With my newly moistened fingers I ran the back of my nail between her inner and outer labia, and pressed gently on her bartholin glands. I was surprized to see one give a tiny squirt as I gently rubbed next to it.Angie was beyond wet- she was dripping. I spread the labia minor open,and endearingly pulled them apart,and to the side. She moaned loudly.One of her hands had floated over her breast,and now she rolled her nipple between her fingers. I rubbed a little harder on her clitoris in little circular motions,and with two fingers pulled the hood back and pinched it forward. She was bucking her hips now. the little pearl popped into view -red with pulsing blood,and excitment. I rubbed my fingers around her vaginal opening as she bucked her hips involuntarily,and her felt a small surprize as her hymen was still very much intact, perforated in two or three places, but very much intact. The holes were to small to get my finger through. I kept rubbing her clitoris. She was starting to make noise with every breath,and her breathing was rapid,and shallow. I pinched her labia minor between the knuckles of my frist and second fingers,and applied a little pressure as I pulled out, and at the same time pulled back on the skin around her clitoris, and pushed it back into her fold deeply pinching down on the sensitive organ between my thumb and forefinger. She was gasping in and out with short little breaths. Her face was scarlet red as she let out little bleating sounds. I grabbed the labia on the other side and pulled it out and to the side. Pressured her clit between my fingers and pulled up,and back twice,three times,and she BLEW!!!

Her hands flew to her genitals and covered mine grabbing. Her back arched and came forward as I could see the tendons in her neck. Then she fell back gasping for air. Her face flushed,and covered with shiney with new sweat. She spasmed forward,and back again with her eyes open looking at me with shock and wonder. Eyes closed she laid back simply panting. Still grabbing my hands, I released the various parts slowly. I ran my fingers up and down her thighs softly, barely touching,tickeling. She twitched again. Still she covered her genitals with her hands. I took her hands in mine and blew air down on her pussy with my mouth. She gave a little scream and slapped her legs shut.

She opened her eyes, and asked,"What was that?"

I answered," That sweety, was your orgasm."

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