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My wife and I were delighted with the changes in our 18 year old son. It had only been four months since had him secretly castrated, but the transformations that Dr. Dunn predicted were happening.
First, Justin definitely had less energy. No longer was he barging through the back door and heading straight for the refrigerator to drink milk straight out of the carton after playing basketball for hours on end. He was moving slower now, and there was a relaxed calm about him. Justin was spending much more time just sitting to read church publications, proofing brother Jim Sunday’s sermon, and preparing lesson plans for his Sunday school class. As for basketball, he hadn’t played for weeks. The last time he tried shooting hoops in our backyard, he came inside after five or ten minutes instead of his usual one hour of play that he spent before his castration. I remember him walking in looking exhausted instead of invigorated. We had of course stopped checking his bed for signs that he was masturbating when waking up. Dr. Dunn assured us that Justin was no longer having either morning erections or spontaneous erections during the day, and that our son’s sex drive was dramatically diminished. Still, about once or twice a week in the evenings as we watched television downstairs, we could hear Justin in the shower for long stretches at a time—sometime as long as 45 minutes. “It sounds like he’s still trying to masturbate while in the shower,” said Dr. Dunn, when we spoke to him about it. “Now he’s only able to achieve an erection if he physically manipulates his penis for long stretches at a time, and your son is not quite mentally ready to give up something that used to give him so much pleasure.” “But he will,” continued Dr. Dunn. “I’ve counseled many young men like Justin who, during the third or fourth month after being castrated, are still trying masturbate. Its about this time they would start to understand what letting themselves be castrated really means, and began complaining to their parents and to me about what I did to them.” “But as I explained to you before, as it becomes more difficult and time consuming for Justin to achieve an erection, not to mention trying to reach an orgasm, he will give up masturbating just like those other young men that I speak about. In the next week or so Justin will stops thinking about girls altogether, and will realize that he’s lost interest in sex. It’s another of many steps of him coming to terms with being a eunuch.” Which was true. I would sneak into his room during the day and read his email—I hired a security firm to hack into his Dell and discover his passwords—to see if he had figured out what I had done to him and if he was still communicating with that girl. Reading his email was interesting. His messages to his buddies were about the same, but there was a dramatic change with his mail to that girl he was interested in. He was sending long email to her and telling her how he missed her right up to the time of his first hot flash. That was when his testosterone level was hitting rock bottom. His letters to her began to get shorter and less and less romantic. It was as if Justin was running out of things to say to this girl or, more to the point, I think he was forgetting why he was even writing to her. Soon he was no longer sending daily messages to her. It was every other day, and then less and less until he stopped writing to her. Of course she was hurt and confused, and wrote him that she didn’t understand why he had become disinterested in her. She wanted to know why he had didn’t seem to care anymore. She was didn’t know that she was asking a question that Justin, thanks to Dr. Dunn, couldn’t even begin to answer. End of part 10
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